Visions From the Shadows...

Like a hinge...

2012-03-04T16:39:00.001-06:00

I never believed in theconcept of “soul mates”, or love at first sight. But I am beginning to believea very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who isexactly right for you. Not because he or she was perfect, or because you were,but because your combined flaws and differences were arranged in such a waythat it allowed the two separate beings to hinge together.

It will pass...

2012-03-04T11:17:00.000-06:00

Each day I wake up with onething on my mind… What will I be able to see? I have better days and there aredays it is a little harder. I know the support of my children is there and Ifeel there are days they don’t know what to do. I do want them to know theyneed not do anything except to keep in contact. If I need their help I knowthey will be there and that is the comfort I need. My brother lives on the westcoast on Vancouver Island and he is quite concerned about my planned drivingtrip out this coming June. Rest assured Jim I won’t be driving if conditionsare marginal and know well enough to only be out there on the road when it isbright and sunny. I would never risk more to lose what I have.

Even my dear sister hasoffered to drive me out if that be the case. You see, this journey through themountains must be done in a car. There is so much beauty to see other thanrocks and trees… I have memories and have stopped to admire the massive valleysthat make up Roger’s Pass. The drive through that area after Golden is amazingand I would not miss it for anything. This time through I am taking severalhours in the pass to capture images on film… yes film. I have been researchingsome of the off-road trails and set-backs so I will be able to more fullyexplore the area as well as the railroad history. As a note, I will be equippedwith an Emergency Location Transmitter in case I get into trouble. I do knowthe safety rules for backwoods and mountainous exploration.

Canadian Artillery blasting avalanche hazards
Using a 105mm Howitzer

The history of Roger’s Passis unique in itself. When it comes to bringing this closer to home a friend ofmine (Bishop John Marlor) has sculpted and brought to life the history of Roger’sin his basement with a scale model railroad ( I am a model railroader as well)and suggestions have been made of some of the things to look for. This is thelast opportunity to discover this area on this scale and I intend to use it.While I would prefer to do this journey alone or with someone who would keep upto me.

All in all I am not surewhat is driving me to move on like this taking all things into consideration. Ihave a love for life and my family but it is my work in the studio or withShadows that I keep working hard at hoping to finish… There is no end to thiswork in reality and well I suppose I could carry on to a second volume but Iwill know better as the book comes together. Each time I shoot for the conceptI discover something new and a little different. An angle or a skin tone… it isall unique and slightly bizarre in a way but all in all fascinating from mypoint of view. Even when I am in Victoria, photographer Mike Hebden will be photographing meas part of the entire piece. I will see what another “Shadow Painter” sees andpossibly the way I would capture my own image in a shadowy existence.

The image above was taken years ago by photographer Josuf Karsh of Helen Keller. I am not sure of the story behind it or if it is a composite. It is the inspiration for my work with shadows.

Love and support is everywhere...

2012-02-26T23:13:00.000-06:00

The week was quiet althoughbusy. I have completed several wedding orders which had finally come in. It isrough when you look at the lists and realize you have 2000 plus images to workon plus the gift wedding and the shoots that have been done. I will be adding aline into the contract that will give me extra time if orders aren’t sent inwith-in a certain length of time. Then when an order comes in 5 months afterthe wedding… I have say 5 months to fill it. Well, it won’t be that long but ithas to be done.

I have selected far too manyimages for special editing but that is the way I am. I see something as simpleas a flower in the bridal bouquet or the way a rhinestone glimmers and I spendten minutes photographing it. It is remarkable what one can find deep in thepetals of a flower or well within the lace of the bridal corset. Why do Itorture myself like this? Funny… I can even answer that one and while somemight think it a sign of mental instability (I have always flown a little southof normal) it is because it makes someone smile, makes them happy and go “oooh”.

Enough said about that fornow… The adaptation to my new living situation has been a bit rough but I havebegun to adapt. I am still uncertain about arranging a few things and where tohang some of my photographs. I have the same one in the same spot and it willlikely stay there. There are 3 more 8x12’s and then 4 poster size images whichcould very well end up lining the hall way. The images are all framed and areprime photographs so will be hung up… sometime.

I continue to eat propermeals most of the time as by eating properly I should continue to keep theextra weight off. Still hit McD’s for breakfast once a week and I don’t thinkthat will ever change. I don’t want it too as I rather enjoy the McMuffin. Inany case I keep reasonable hours as that and proper diet are some of the keyessentials to a reasonable state of health. After all this medical I had acouple of weeks ago was the first time my cholesterol levels were where theyshould be. So my body is on the road to recovery. I do have Brigitte to thankfor that.

This week is a mixed bag ofthings. I should be in studio tomorrow night with long time friend Gayle who isworking on her photography skills but is coming in for a “feel good” boudoirsitting. She was one of my daughter’s bridesmaids and feels this will be a goodthing to do. I am quite honoured she has chosen me to shoot it for her so asusual I will do my best. Have a consultation Tuesday I believe then finish upany lagging work and photo orders.

If it weren’t for some ofthe friends I have… I would have gone over the edge long ago. I get a randomtext message out of the blue from someone just saying “Hi”… I have had to filla lot of people in on what has been going on and well it is nice to know thatwith a few of them they continue to keep in touch. Actually, more than they didbefore. Really I find it quite amazing and comforting and am quite thankful forthat support. While I have no idea as to what the future holds I do know itwill be full of children. All special in their own way, but all of them have myheart even the wee one who fell asleep in the studio a few months back…

A new beginning

2012-02-22T23:17:00.002-06:00

I walked into the livingroom where my daughter was being “tied” into her gown. I stood for a moment…actually a few and having been restricted from my camera gear I did the nextbest thing. I closed my eyes for a moment to ensure the image of her beauty wassolid within my brain, filed carefully away as I would not see this again.Memorized it so that I could draw on the beauty later as my vision dwindles.Then I took out my cell phone and took a photograph.

Vicky told me her emotionswere hitting her as I drove her to the church. So steady a rock till now,planning, purchasing, arranging and getting everything in order. It was all butdone… now all of her hard work to make this the perfect day was catching up toher. She was shaking a little and she was with her (as someone put it) hero…her Dad, me…

We stood together in thechurch waiting for that moment where the Reverend would say “Please rise…” amoment every girl dreams of, the moment where she walks down the aisle to meether special man, her soon to be husband. I held back the tears but yet… a fewstill managed to escape. I walked with her to the front of the church slowly,giving her the chance to turn tail and run. I know this would not happen as Leewas a fabulous man and I actually liked him.

Vicky held my left arm andmy hand held onto hers. The grasp was firm but not too tight as I feared thetalons at the ends of her fingertips. When we arrived at the front of thechurch I shook Lee’s hand then embraced him. Mostly out of the love I have forthis man and perhaps a little sympathy as well as I know my daughter prettygood. I turned to my little girl and gave her the most loving hug a fathercould give his daughter. Kissed her and well… choked a little before sittingnext to her Mother. There were a few people that should have been in the church on this day, for reasons understandable they were absent...

The ceremony was beautifuland the whole time both Vicky and Lee radiated love. Words were firm and clear,their hands and fingers entwined… So much in love and about to embark on theirnext great adventure.

I shall continue...

2012-02-10T22:27:00.000-06:00

There were no real surprisesin my recent blood work. Vitamin D is low so I am now to take it each day forthe rest of my life. I guess with age there is a decrease in the body’s abilityto manufacture this vitamin. I spend a lot of time outside so the opportunityis there with the sun and all but perhaps this is part of the fatigue and otherissues I was having. I do feel better as a whole since taking the supplementbut will be back for more tests as other levels are out of sync. Take care ofthe easiest fix and see how it affects the other two problems. Otherwise I amin pretty good shape. I do however have an eye test coming next week so I willknow more how that is doing.

My work with shadows hastaken a backseat for a few weeks due to my daughter’s wedding coming up in aweek but that is OK. There is young photographer I have been mentoring comingto back up Mishelle at the wedding and we will actually be doing some studiowork in that genre next Friday evening after the rehearsal events. I am quitelooking forward to working solely on the project and the next several sittingswith key project models. Of course somewhere in there a baby will be born sooff to the hospital to do the first “official” photos. This will be my grandsonas a note…

I have chosen to do verylittle this weekend. I am going out to a lake not far from Saskatoon to photograph a lovely couple as part of theirengagement photos. They have chosen the studio to photograph their wedding thisOctober and I am hoping I can be there. Well I will be but in what capacity isyet to be seen. But I will be in charge and supervise as best I can regardlessof my vision capabilities.

One day at a time I continueto move forward. On my own for the rest of this journey perhaps. Well… I knowwho will not be part of it and quite frankly that is too bad but life choiceswere made that did effect me. Either way, on my own, with my family and friendsby my side or perhaps in the future a partner or companion of some sort I shallcontinue and do so with pride…

On location...

2012-02-05T23:21:00.000-06:00

I ventured out with a goodfriend today to scout various locations that could be used to photograph mydaughter and her soon to be husband on their wedding day. With the lack of snowsome of the areas can only be improved with new snow so I think one or more ofthese spots will be ideal. I captured some images from the various locationsand made up an album for my daughter and my studio partner Mishelle who isflying in from Vancouver to shoot the wedding. I apparently will be busy thatday and should leave my camera at home. I likely won’t but it won’t be too faraway.

I am quite looking forwardto this wedding as I actually like the man who has asked for her hand. Mygrand-daughters like him too which helps and well everyone seems top get alongvery well. The day may be a difficult one for some but then that is the waythings unfold and there is nothing I can do about that.

This weekend was full ofimages. After a 5 hour shoot in studio with Meghan from Alberta, I pretty much needed a nap but went over to thehome of my youngest to visit and see how she is doing. She is due in a monthand I had just seen the 3D imagery of my grandson. I saw a bit of a grin, ayawn and at one point he made a peace sign as well so this new technology isreally cool. Once I did get home I was quite ready for bed and took theopportunity to practice the wedding piece for the upcoming wedding beforeactually going to bed.

I was quite happy and evenin the cold to venture forth this afternoon and enjoyed the conversations ofthe day. When I got home I needed a bit of a nap and took one. Supper, takecare of a few emails and get my income tax wrapped up but can’t Netfile untilafter Feb 13^th… Figures and I actually get a little back this yeartoo…

This coming week is busy,with some studio business to handle and getting to the crunch of this piece ofmusic. I know I don’t like it but it is for my daughter so I will still do thebest I can before sterilizing the keyboard and burning the sheet music.

Some interesting life events…and not so favourable results from my recent physical. Will I worry, yes, alittle for now but see the Doctor again tomorrow to find out more.

No shotguns allowed...

2012-02-02T21:41:00.000-06:00

It is slightly more than twoweeks till my eldest child is wed. While this is an encore performance it isequally as important as it was to her the first time she was married. There isa difference… I like her fiancé. I havemy tuxedo selected and it will be ready to go. The shoulder holster has beenrefit to my physique and the weapon of choice has been clean, oiled but not yetloaded. Mind you this is a tongue in cheek comment as everyone knows I doprefer the FN-C1 7.62mm over any other weapon but it is a little hard toconceal under a tux.

Be that as it may, the timeapproaches and I am working on the music (now shuddering in my chair) that mydaughter has chosen to be played during their grand entry to the reception. Iwill have it ready and with a few modifications it will be played with graceand dignity but only to a point as I do have limitations when it comes to “TheBlack-Eyed Peas”. This is not a shotgun wedding but the groom knows his weaponsand has taken the time to educate my daughter on their use, ability anddangers. All in all, he is the right guy.

The past couple of weekshere have been quiet and calm. My son was in on the weekend for the stag, myyoungest dropped by just before she absconded with my car and another friend ofmine Morgan, was kind enough to make her car available to me. It was wonderfulto have the option and I think I put a grand total of 15km on it. Basicallyjust going and doing what I needed to do. I will eventually have to get alongwithout a car but the city’s transit system isn’t too bad and there areoptions. Not the options I had before so it will be more difficult but none theless I should be able to cope with the changes.

I did go for my yearlyphysical and received a call from my doctor this very evening. He talked to meabout my blood test results and there are a few problems that he needs to talkto me about. One is a basic condition of winter time in the prairies and myrecent lack of outdoor activities. My vitamin D is low so I will go pick someup tomorrow and begin to take them. My thyroid is off as well but in reality itisn’t a surprise as both my brother and sister both have issues with theirs soit seems my time has come as well. There is another concern but when I knowmore then I will be in a better position to say something or react to it. Fornow I wait…

The passion begins to return...

2012-01-22T11:34:00.000-06:00

Miranda

Today was a good day. I wasin the studio this afternoon with Miranda and she was excited as I would bephotographing her in her wedding dress. She and her fiancé are off to Vegas ina couple of weeks where they will be married. I do wish her, Sean and their sonhappiness in their new life together and in their move to Calgary. Sean (also a photographer) is taking up a more lucrativejob there and Miranda is able to transfer to the same company she works for here, there as well. Shewill be back in the studio at least once more before they leave.

I suppose I find the studiois also my sanctuary and I do have many moments of peace and tranquility. I dohope it remains that way for some time to come. I also enjoy teaching what Ihave learned and there was such a student with me today. I have worked with herbefore and I am certain that her talent will grow and develop. I would like tosee her follow her passion as I have followed mine and in time I am confidentshe will begin to develop a definite style she can and will call her own. Oneday at a time and step by step as we all know it isn’t going to happenovernight.

I did have to watch the timea little as today was also the stag or bachelor party for my future son in lawLee. Still not entirely sure why he wants to marry my daughter but I love herand she is happy so… I support them in this adventure and trust their love willhold them through most anything. I did not take my camera with me but lo andbehold my android phone comes with one and with-in minutes of arriving thefirst stag update image was uploaded to Facebook. Beer was evident from the beginning and soonthe pizza arrived. The party started at the golf dome where everyone wassmacking balls off the elevated “T” box.

Future Son-in-Law Lee

I went with the guy who willMC the reception and we climbed into the ball picker. Knowing we would be thetarget of every golfer there off we went. Some of the balls bounced off thepicker, some in front of us. The next hit from Clay (Grooms friend) it cameright for the cart and nailed me in the thigh. There is a screen there but withtwo in the cart you are right on the edge of danger. On the next pass the drivegot one square in the shoulder.

It was a fun time and whileI was not going on the pub-crawl with the group but I would be picking up my sonfrom Outlaw’s when they were done as his truck was at my place and he would not be driving home…

Hooked up...

2012-01-19T10:43:00.000-06:00

It has been a ratherinteresting and tenuous week. I don’t watch a lot of TV but will sometimes haveit on for the background noise. Any radio I listen to other than Amateur RadioI do through streaming audio. This is all well and fine however I have not beenhooked up to the cyber world until today. It was nice to have TV back, internetback… I do rely on it somewhat and had several emails to respond to andschedules to update. In any case the young man from SaskTel checked all thelines, brought in the equipment and set to work installing it all. Once done Ifind out that I now have DVR capabilities all at no extra cost.

Now like I said I don’t watcha lot of TV and now I have the ability to record programs I don’t watch in thefirst place. That is OK as I sat down and began checking out the new system. Isaw there was a movie on I would maybe like to see but it was on at the sametime as Voyager and Next Gen. Cool… I set the DVR to record those two programsas I can watch them at some point when the programming sucks and see the movie.I might get used to the DVR thing.

This evening has gone muchbetter as I was feeling more at home than ever before. The TV was playing, coffeecooking in the kitchen. Had a meal of a grilled pork chop, rice and veggies.Dessert was two white chocolate/macadamia nut cookies. I feel that I will alsosleep much better tonight as well. The neighbours upstairs do make a bit ofnoise but it seems to quit at 1030pm. I did find out he is a research scientistwith a crop research facility on campus and through further chatting alsodiscovered he is using some of the varieties of wheat my Dad developed over 50years ago in his research. Now that is the best news I have heard in a longtime.

Noisy snow and I don't know...

2012-01-15T10:16:00.000-06:00

I spent my first night inthe 38^th parallel as I have seemed to name this place. Getting usedto all new sounds and such, trying to get comfortable. I live on a bus route,never heard one. I live near the airport and I did hear an aircraft but really,no more than any other place I have lived. Never heard the people upstairs butI thinking they must be back in

India

visiting family. If they are it was a good time togo mostly because of the cold. The big thing that startled the crap out of mewas the fridge starting up. But it is a “regular” noise I will quickly getaccustomed to.

I moved at the right time ofday considering the cold and snow that came in the evening. Glad I altered myplan from a Sunday move. I now have a smaller driveway to shovel than beforeand 10 paces of walkway. If upstairs is away I will shovel the walk to thestreet for the letter carrier. Oh yeah… even had my first piece of maildelivered likely on Friday… a bill of course but it is kind of cool. So twobills a month and maybe some other odds and ends. Could I get used to this?Probably… Do I want to? That is the operative question.

I don’t know is the onlyanswer I have.

Not mine to make...

2012-01-14T22:00:00.000-06:00

When someone makes adecision for you without talking about it or even listening to possible changesor fixes it is a kind of slap in the face. It was very upsetting news to hearbut quite frankly I am just getting too far along to even fight about it. Madesome suggestions and they were summarily dismissed. So, rather than create abig scene I saw this as a moment where one could at least come to a commonagreement and live in relative peace. I do take some of the blame for where Iam now but certainly it could have been handled differently and withconsideration of both people involved not just one.

This morning promptly at0930hrs my good friend Alistair and his son Malcolm arrived. He is from

Scotland

and swore me never to tell that a Scot would be seenassisting an Englishman. I then reminded him that he was rendering aid to the McLean part of the family so his soul would rest easy. I could have been fromMelmac and he still would have leant a hand. Within a minute my eldest sonBruce rumbles in and not far behind my youngest boy Reg. I kind of chuckle as Iwrite this as both boys are over 30 years old so hardly boys but like theirfather, they have yet to really grow up.

I had the load planned out afew days in advance. Knowing the capacity of each vehicle involved I knew whowas taking what and each “driver” would be responsible as to how their vehicleas actually loaded. This is what being a loadmaster is all about. I figured wewould start loading on cue and then should be done by 1100hrs. I was quite happywhen the last tailgate was closed at my new address at 1050hrs. My two sons andI went off to Timmie’s for a coffee and my usual raisin bran muffin. We chatteda bit and talked further about some future events. Once we all had time to resta little it was time to head our separate ways. I know I would be joining themall for supper later at a favourite family restaurant along with the grandkidsand everyone.

I set myself to task andbegan to put my life and new home back together. Couch here, table there. Ilined up the photographs I was going to hang along various walls to help decidewhere they would best go. I basically wanted my place to be my own. The onlyissue I would have is new noises, lack of internet until next week and no TV. Idon’t watch that much to begin with but I am sure I will notice it not there. Idid set up my bedroom and have gone through a number of the boxes already to besure of where things are should I need them. It didn’t take long but for themost part things are where they will stay.

The biggest thing is onceeverything is in place I will need to practice being in my home with muchlimited vision. For now I can still see fairly well but in time I will eitherneed a lot of light or I will simply learn where things are so I can find themeasily. It is also kind of nice as 10 steps from my door is a bus stop soshould I need a bus I will learn the schedule and simply walk out the door toit. I am not looking forward to the remainder of my vision going and having totake public transport. Seems to me I was told by someone that should I need aride that they would be happy to drive me where ever I needed to go. Well thatdecision has apparently been made for me as well.

No more… I will make my owndecisions and be sure the decisions I do make are not affecting someone else.Again, this is my fault as well of that I am sure but at least I would want todiscuss alternate possibilities and not write it all off just because I feellike it. One thing I have learned… you will never grow in peace and happinessunless you forgive. This is a lesson as taught by the bible and I think it ishigh time to read it once again.

One box...

2012-01-08T20:25:00.002-06:00

Changes in life are alwaysthere, sometimes quite subtle and sometimes they will kick you in the face withsuch force you wake up four days later. While I make plans for a trip in June,work on wedding images from New Years and try to schedule in sittings for “Shadows”I am also engaged in a major review.

One box at a time, onemoment at a time… each box is opened and sorted through. Bits examined andtheir worth, both real and sentimental is assessed. Two boxes, one to keep andthe other: time to say goodbye. I have taken several large boxes thatessentially have been moved from one place to another. Gone through themcarefully and pared the contents by about 50%. Then I went through the “keep”side once more and weeded out another 20%. There, that is done. Some of the boxeswill be sealed and dated and later on, perhaps years or even after I am longgone will be opened and sorted once again.

There is more outside instorage but short of a few tools, a HF Rig (shortwave), a tent and a few otheritems those boxes will hit the dumpster without being opened. It is a chore tosort through possessions and try to bring things in order. Now the completedboxes are lined up in the living room waiting to be loaded into a truck andtaken to my new suite. It was time to clean house and seek out the new.

Some things in life happenfor whatever reason, sometimes one is forced into it without their consent oreven awareness. Where hundreds would take every step possible to change thedestiny being carved out, there are those who cannot or do not have any choice.For those… pack your boxes and carry on. Do not look back once everything ofold is settled. Mark that as a chapter in your life and learn from it. But donot dwell on what you cannot change.

Forsaken?

2012-01-01T20:54:00.001-06:00

My eyes grow dim,
I cannot see.
I have not brought,
my specs with me...

Lyrics from an old camp song (Quartermaster's Stores) ring in my brain and some of it rings quite true with me today. I had a peaceful meal with my Mother this evening and we did talk about many things. About being hopeful and we even touched on the life of Christ, the bible and how cruel the church was centturies ago. I suppose there is always faith and one can hang onto that and one can also hang onto the love of one's mother. It is apparent there isn't much else. I do have my work and the shooting I am doing in the studio, I can hang onto the love of my children and grandchildren as I know they will support my fight as I fall into a world of darkness.

I should clarify that even at its worse I will still see light, detect shadows, and perhaps see large print up close but otherwise the ability to drive will disappear, to effectively play a game on a computer will be a challenge but so will life in general. I have been able to practice and learn parts of downtown, sorting out how far to the next corner and so on. The biggest saving factor is that for the most part the downtown core has not changed since I was a boy. The streets are the same. The gas pump is gone off of 3rd Ave, the old garage is a storefront operation of some sort but the streets are the same and a lot of stores are in the same place. I am confident with more practice that getting off the bus downtown will be a breeze and I can go pretty much anywhere I need to.

I have already talked to staff (Thank you Dori) at Safeway about shopping and such so with a little help I should do OK there too. I feel more or less OK about my future as a human being and a man but so terribly uncertain about many other things. Last night was an example... I had hoped from the start to be at the wedding I was at with someone as I have been to so many weddings before. This is the first time I have had to seperate my emotions totally from my being as I could not be an effective photographer for the bride and groom if I hung onto them. My God, I don't ever want to have to do that again. It would be similar to being a Vulcan and totally supressing my emotions. This would kill my ability to show compassion, love, feel another's pain and be a human being.

While I have come to a compromise of sorts I have yet to decide to implement it. Dashed hopes, a few stupid mistakes on my part, complete and utter confusion as to why some things happen and not having a clue about other things is making me lean to a life of my work, and my children forsaking all others and anyone else. There are a few close friends that I would possibly consider as my children but they don't even live here in the city. I do remain in contact with them and will always be concerned about their wellbeing but a darkness is coming over my life that I am trying to hold back.

I am a soldier, I will fight the enemy and take no prisoners. I can ill afford to do that but at the same time I will no longer allow myself to be lead on or will I put myself in a position where I rely on a promise. I can't do that anymore, I really can't as I still have life to live and things to do with or without anyone's help, I will live, I will not fall into the darkness with any bit of uncertainty. I will pray, I will finish my book, I will love and teach my children's children, I will teach those that wish to be taught and carry on as a soldier is trained to do.

T'was New Years Eve

2012-01-01T14:38:00.001-06:00

Some time ago a gave a young couple a gift. It was to provide them with photographic coverage of their wedding. I prayed I would be able to carry out the promise of the gift and my prayers were answered. Last night on the last day of 2011 I was able to be with Leigh and Jonathan on their wedding day. From early morning while the bride and bride's maids prepared themselves till the garter was tossed I did not leave her side. It was a joyous event for the two families and there were moments of stress and humour. While the bride was getting ready, her father kept himself busy with the return of faulty sound gear and getting the replacements, washed his daughter's car and parked it in the hotel garage. Something I would do when my daughter gets married in February.

I have known Leigh for a number of years and was more or less prepared for some of her off hand remarks and actions. Even captured some of them on "film" for them to enjoy later. The whole day was as perfect as one could hope. The wedding and reception hall was very elegant with its colours of gold and (Vancouver Canuck blue), the bride and her entourage we very beautiful. Even the comment "You could lose small children in my cleavage", from one of her best friends (also a bridesmaid) brought laughter to the group. It was shaping up to be a wonderful day.

Except for one thing... I wanted one person to be there with me and it didn't happen. It was a day of rejoicing and celebration, a time of renewal and despite anything else going on in my life there was but one I wanted to share it with. I will leave it all right there, those that need to know already do, those that don't need to know likely never will. Be that as it may, I did my utmost to have a wonderful evening.

Everything that needed to be done from my point of view was done with a little extra, I was home by 1100pm. Had someone been there with me, I might have had a few more dances, and brought in the New Year with someone I care about.My New Years was spent taking on the role of John Clancy's "Sam Fisher" in Chaos Theory.

The Miracle of Snow...

2011-12-24T16:56:00.000-06:00

Christmas is upon us andmany people I know will be celebrating with family and friends. It can be awonderful time of the year for so many and others not always the case. I won’tgo into much detail or bring up sad stories but there are many who will be in aplace that is not very nice. A place of solitude, a place of war, or simplywithout a family in which to celebrate this blessed day.

Anyway, we look outside to abarren landscape that is void of snow. I would love to have had a wonderfulblanket of clean white snow all over as it has been the way here for decades.Snow, pretty decorations, everything so perfect. There are many who see thingsthis way and those who don’t. It doesn’t take snow to make Christmas but ithelps. It takes many other things…

I have been more or less OKwhen predicting some weather. Going solely on trends and past history I havedone well, kind of lousy but I did try to reassure someone that we should havesnow starting yesterday and going through today being Christmas Eve. The snownever came… But this part is to Renee: While we both would like to have seensnow to cover the ground in its blanket of white it is not to be. While a crewwas going to come and make snow for you it is too warm for it to work so thattoo is not to be. We both know it isn’t snow that makes this time of year somagical it is the celebration of a birth. The birth of the Saviour, the time ofgiving, love and thanks.

This is your first Christmasas a new bride to Mason and between the two of you there is magic. You bothhave a firm belief in the story and history of Christ. You are both hardworking and giving people. Seeing you take one of God’s humble creatures(puppy) into your home and giving it love, compassion and a good life is but thebeginning. When you start thinking about children there will be snow, sleighand toboggan rides and the magic will be there through you and you will share this magic with your children. The spirit is alivein you Renee, the love of your saviour, your husband your family and yourfriends is what makes this Christmas bright and happy.

The feeling is in the air,and even in my unique situation this year I can feel it. Sometimes it is justout of reach… right there at my finger tips but can’t quite get it. Well, I don’tgive up and if I am unable to grasp it this year, there is next year. I do knowthat through family and other outside influences I am not alone and Christmaswill be back. Next year, better organized too. So with that in mind Renee, thesnow is there, just barely out of reach. You can pray for it and it might notcome but it is there. Next year have a stool handy and you should be able toreach it. Have Mason place you on his shoulders for a longer reach. In realityyou already have your snow, it is in your heart, the tree in your living room,in the tousled haired man you married just before Thanksgiving and in thegentle peering eyes of your puppy. The snow is there, just close your eyes anddare to dream of white fluffy flakes falling to the ground making it pristineand white.

When I was close to Renee’sage I had the opportunity to spend Christmas in Bethlehem. The following day I found myself in Jerusalem following the footsteps of Christ and his disciples.It was a Christmas I will fondly remember. Even though I was in

Israel

and one could hear sporadic gunfire over the Golan Heights it was still a magical day. Why so magical? Itsnowed as we traveled between the Sea of Galilee andthe port of Haifa.A Christmas snow and for those of us from

Canada

… well we stopped and got out of the bus to enjoy thefalling splendour. As quick as it started it stopped… but it was OK and we allfelt good about a wee taste of home.

I saw many things in

Israel

and there even things today I see which bring mememories of that time. Much like a photograph will bring a memory back from thedepths of my rather upside down brain. It could be a good memory or a sad one.I have always been a firm believer that if a photograph evokes any kind ofreaction (Anger, tears, smiles, laughter, sadness) it has done its job.

Image Used with Permission

I viewed this photograph posted in a group Ibelong to and I saw several things… The beggar on the corner looking for foodin Italy, the panhandler in my own city wanting spare change, the beaten abusedwoman seeking help, the lost soul looking for salvation but above all I see thevision of Mary… not the Mary down the street… but the mother of Jesus, wife ofJoseph, the same Mary that gave birth to the son of God and placed him in a tinymanger in the village of Bethlehem.

This image taken by DennisBater from Vancouver Island of “Eva Destruction” is one that really made me stopand reflect. I saw the beggar… I saw the woman looking with hope at hersaviour, I saw Mary as she gazed upon the Star of David on the most holy nightin the Christian world. I even saw hope for the salvation of my own Christmas.The same brown eyes as two of my children, the same deep brown of my grandsonand granddaughter… The same look that will even appear now as one might look silentlyin awe or praise at what is before them. Dennis, have no fear while this tomany will be a representation of Christ and Christmas there is no one thatcould argue anything about the image itself. It has helped me realize adifficult moment in time is but just a moment and the path I took should endexactly where I belong… in the arms of Christ.

To one and all, MerryChristmas, may peace and love be with you and the day bring you nothing butjoy, laughter and love…

Shalom

Phil

A short poem that was foundprinted on a candy can wrapper and given to Beth by her father some time ago.The author is unknown…

Look at the candy cane, What do you see?

Stripes that are red like the blood shed for me.

White for my savior, who is sinless and pure,

'J' is for Jesus my Lord, That's for sure!

Turn it around and a staff you will see,

Jesus, my shepherd, Was born for me!

With the blessings of Fernando Farfan I share this piece of Inspiration.

Peter Pan and ET...

2011-12-24T14:14:00.000-06:00

It is a very quiet afternoon in the household today. Just watched Peter Pan, and now an old classic is on... "ET" The Extraterrestrial... I have been selecting images for "Shadows and Light" and reclaimed a few of Danielle from the Archives. It is sometimes wise to revisit a past sitting and see if there was something missed and I don't miss much when it comes to images.

Nothing missed in her shoot but new techniques and software has me going back in time a little to see what new looks can beset a photograph. It isn't much but does help whittle away the time I have this Christmas Eve. More later...

The Light and Dark Which is Christmas...

2011-12-17T19:33:00.000-06:00

Christmas is approaching andI am trying to find the moments that bring this time of year to life. My Dadwas a good portion of Christmas when I was growing up. I don’t know why Isingle him out but it just seemed that way. He would take me with him to thetree lot where we would select a tree, next thing you know Dad was at the storegetting all sorts of things to make the age old family recipe into a deliciousChristmas pudding. Well… time will move on and it will also change things. Afriend of mine would tell me stories of how her Mom was the spirit of Christmasas she grew up, just like my Dad was. Do we all have a family member thatexudes this spirit.

I have tried to be that wayand it was slowly beginning to take a little but as time changes so does one’sdestiny and future. So many things can change the path of the time continuumand it is these things that can take a wonderful season like Christmas andalmost make it dismal. Well I will not let that happen to me, at least I willtry not to. I have caught a few of those special programs on TV that have beenplaying since I was a boy. They help a little. Mom’s minced meat pastries andthe family pudding carefully prepared by my sister have all done their part tocontribute. Invitations to suppers, and other things have been offered and theone thing that caught my eye or ear the most was a group of 8 carollers singingthe songs of Christmas and of the birth of Christ.

Here I was wandering througha busy urban mall and out of the din of people I could pick out the rich andclear tones of the choir. No instruments, just beautiful voices piercing thenoise. A leaned against a wall and closed my eyes to listen and it did not takebut a moment to block out all other noise and feel the richness of each notefrom the baritone to the soprano. At that moment I was totally enveloped in thespirit of the season. As much as I attempted to hold on to that moment it wassoon lost again amongst the holiday shoppers.

Much like the image in thisentry there is light and dark to Christmas. The light is the choir, the joyfulsound of children screaming and hollering as they laugh and play, the lightswhich adorn houses and the trees within. The light is the people going to theirchurches to pray, to sing and celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. The light isthe pudding and the pastries, the food, the family and the love…

The dark in the image isalso present at Christmas… The dark is the moment one finds a loved one haspassed, the dark is when a family comes home to a house devastated by fire or ahouse ravaged by thieves. The dark comes from a man striking his wife orbeating his children and thereby bringing his darkness onto others. This alsoholds true for the woman who lashes out at her baby because he or she won’tstop crying. The dark is the back alley where a patrolling police officer findsa homeless person frozen to death behind a dumpster. The dark is there and itis imperative that the light invade the space of darkness and bring peace tothe world. This Christmas is raked with light and dark and I hope the lightwill prevail.

I will be joining acongregation somewhere for a religious celebration on the eve of Christmas.Through song, prayer, friends and family it will be a brilliant light shiningthrough the darkness, piercing the shadows to lift the spirits of those on theedge. Christmas day I will be surrounded by my children and grandchildren whowill all be making noise and playing with each other as my oldest child wonderswhy she took on this challenge. She has taken on this ominous task as she holdsthe spirit of Christmas that was given to her as a gift from her “Chocolate bar”Grandpa as I received the gift of the tears he never shed.

The image below was capturedin my studio when I was photographing a baby girl for a Christmas portrait.Between changes and other studio alterations this little tyke fell asleep andbrought a sense of peace to the room. A sense that is so desperately needed through-outthe world. In this tiny bundle is the spirit of Christmas given to her by hergrandmother…

Shalom and my the love ofGod be with you all this Christmas season…

A heart lays crying...

2011-12-07T22:42:00.001-06:00

It is a lonely night,somewhere another heart breaks and tears fall to the ground. Where does one gowhen this happens? Perhaps deep into meditation, prayer and a hope the God willsomehow see the lost soul through the night. Perhaps there is a hope thatChrist will lay his hand upon the foreheads of those with broken hearts toremove the pain that comes from with-in the soul.

He held both of hisdaughter’s in his arms as they wept. He held their shaking bodies close to his,in a safe haven to protect them from further harm. Their tears dampened hiscoat but that never mattered to him. Never has, and now the tears become partof him.The embrace was tight and hecould feel the movement of the unborn child in the belly of one of them. Not astruggle but almost like the tiny little soul was trying to tell hisgrandfather that everything would be ok. Perhaps through this innocent miracle,our saviour was trying to reach out. The tears continued to fall.

Both of thegirls protected their children from seeing the tears and this man’s sonembraced him in a way that he was able to convey to him the pain that wasripping through his body. He remained outwardly calm and contained as hislittle girl was playing at his feet and he too protected his child from thetears. The tears continue to fall.They teach us that time willheal all wounds… I trust this is so as it does not matter who created thewounds in the first place but how these wounds are treated afterward. Anyreasonable physician or medical person will tell you that early treatment of awound is vital to the survival of the wounded. When it is a heart or soul it isnot as easy as these parts do not heal well if at all. It is the one whocreated the wound that must bear the infection that could follow…

Only with the trust of Jesuscan one truly begin to heal, This is what the father has taught his children,this is what the creator has taught us through his child, Jesus. Yet… the tearscontinue to fall…

Only God...

2011-12-04T11:11:00.001-06:00

Only God can give us this...

Winter wonderland...

2011-12-03T13:50:00.001-06:00

Winter is slowly beginningto set in around here and thoughts of winter shooting permeate my mind. While Ilove the visions of what can be photographed with snow around I am beginning todislike working in the cold more and more each year. I know as I age my abilityto maintain my warmth in cold weather is less but I also know I could betterprepare myself for those cold winter shoots. It doesn’t help having broken myfoot a couple of years ago since that foot is cold more often than not even inthe summer.

Re-edit from 2006

I have two winter shoots setthis year and both revolve around the same people. In a week I am takingengagement photographs of two really wonderful people. Leigh and Jonathon… theyare getting married this New Year’s Eve in Saskatoon and that will be my second winter sitting. I havephotographer Leigh in studio many times as well as outside. This will be aunique experience because if there is enough snow I will be shooting winterbridals outside in what could be a very cold day. Only to add to the scene weare going to be doing these photographs along a nice groomed roadway in a localcemetery. You will be hard pressed to see that it is such a place as all thestones are flat and will (or should) be covered by snow.

Re-edit from 2006

Many other thoughts come tomind as well this time of year. Family over for Christmas… Something I alwaysenjoy with great anticipation either from having them all around or justknowing that it won’t be long till they leave. Perhaps it is a bit of both. Thingswill change I have been told. Children grow older, some move away and thedynamics change but I would hope that Christmas will be one time if year thateveryone can gather and enjoy the love and spirit of the season. But with eachchange comes new challenges and the time continuum carries on. Some would sayit is fate, some a destiny… A path is taken and sometimes it doesn’t go quitewhere you thought it might… turn around go back to the fork in the road and tryagain.

Another moment... into oblivion.

2011-12-01T23:36:00.001-06:00

Moments of time roll by,each one is there to savour and oh so many are wasted. A person takes a momentand makes a wrong choice. Sometimes that moment will slip away into oblivionand never be seen again. Other times that same moment returns as a stark reminderof what has happened. I have many moments which are wonderful and full of joy.If it is a new discovery while wandering through a store pr perhaps adelightful moment shared with a family member, loved one or a casualconversation with a stranger that will never be met again.

I have had moments where thesimple movement of a light source have dramatically changed the way I capturean image to try to do the same thing again but never quite getting it right. Thatsplit second where you see the smile or disapproving look from someone and youjust can’t quite pin down the thing you did to illicit the response. As amatter of fact there are moments in life where what seems to work well one timejust doesn’t seem to work again… ever!

Who knows if it is right toeven pursue that same moment time and time again. So many times it has beenlost or is just out of reach and no matter what you do or how carefully youmeasure the same circumstances just cannot be duplicated. Moments of time lost,a brief wave of emotion as one recovers from the loss… Well, perhaps that onenanosecond of time will arrive once again and being prepared for it the correctaction can be taken. I am confident there are brief bits of the continuum thatre-appear to give us all the one chance we truly need.

As they grow...

2011-11-27T21:11:00.001-06:00

I have worked with a numberof people in the past 4 decades. Since developing the studio in Saskatoon I have met many more. Some I still keep in contactwith others have faded away for one reason or another. I have taught a fewpeople what I know or at least some of it in hopes they take even a minisculebit away with them in their attempt to develop their own style. I have alwaysbeen a believer that most anyone can learn to be a technically perfectphotographer but unless you have a desire and a style you probably won’t behappy.

Anyway, I have beenfortunate to meet some of the models or subjects I have worked with throughintroductions from other people. Some began with my studio quite young and I amnow photographing their weddings and in some cases children. Two of them came tomind in the past day or two as one was just proposed to by her boyfriend. Ihave been shooting Beth since she was 17 and have had the opportunity to alsophotograph her (not wearing much) on horseback, in a full vintage glamour setin a rustic old hotel (Delta Bessborough to be precise) even on top of theirgrand piano. She will be wed to AJ in June of 2012 and I have been asked (atthe threat of tears and a tantrum) to capture their special day.

Another is Robin. Havingphotographed her as she was expecting her first (Hunter) and several studiosets after that was married this past August and I was their to record thecelebration. Mind you Robin does have another side of her as is shown in this imageI stole from her Facebook. She is a hunter and along with her husband take thetime to hunt their prey and I know they make full use of pretty much everythingso nothing will go to waste. I am not a fan of deer meat but a properlyprepared and spiced deer sausage cooked slowly on a BBQ is incredible.

Not too many Jaceys in theworld but I have worked with two… One I will talk about now the other later.This fine young lady first posed for me at 15 I think… and through the yearshas progressed in her modelling feats. Having gone to Toronto for the “Miss Teen Canada Pageant” and is now inuniversity. She has met a wonderful man who seems to be caring and Jacey simplyloves him. No wedding bells yet but who is to say what might happen over thenext few years. Time will tell for who the bell tolls…

A moment of reflection...

2011-11-27T18:23:00.001-06:00

I digress a little in myblogging and go back a few days to November 11^th. A large part of myfamily including my Mom joined together at the “Field of Honour” located at theWoodlawn Cemetery her in Saskatoon. It seems to be a regular event as we lay a wreathat the memorial then venture to my Dad’s graveside for moments of peace andsolitude. This year we happened to meet Dad’s “neighbour’s” family. They werethere for the same reason we were for the most part… to visit a passed lovedone and a special day.

I visit this place a fewtimes a year and I will turn a slow circle and envision all those I know here. Southof southwest of the flags lay Brigadier General Summers. I never served underhim but did know him reasonably well as I chummed around with his son. South ofsoutheast is Captain Richard Lovell. He was killed when his Herc crashed do toa shifted load and deployed chute stalling the bird. Northwest is Justin’sgrave… he was murdered for his ballcap and was a schoolmate of my daughter.Directly south further into the centre of the grounds is my grandmother. Justsouth of Rick lay my paternal grandparents.

To the northwest is wherethe mother of a friend is buried and I used to have coffee with her and othermall people when my ex worked at Confederation Mall. She was a delightful woman, simple in her ways but still would light up a room with her laugh and smile. There is a boy I was friends withwho died when we both were 6… he is buried next to his Mother about 300m south of theflags. Directly east of my grandmother is a brother and sister of a couple Iknew some years back. He took his own life and his sister was taken by cancer. Not sure if any of that family is left actually. Kind ofsad when ways part the way they do.

This small chunk of land hasmany stories, a few of them I know and many I don’t. While it is a sad place itis also one of tranquility and peace. A place to meditate, a place to be alone…

Luck and Fortune...

2011-11-22T22:06:00.001-06:00

The past couple of weeks have been exhausting but in all somewhat rewarding too. I see my bride taking interest in her own small business and how excited she becomes when she talks about it. I know there is lots to learn and come tax time it is nice to know we do have an expert in the family who will always answer questions about this rather bizarre concept. Be that as it may, she is enjoying herself and getting out to meet interesting people and enjoy something different.

Last Thursday my grandson Erich was run over by a car in front of his school. My son Bruce attempted to call me but generally my cell phone is on silent when I am busy but he did have presence of mind to use the landline and let me know what was going on. This was Thursday and we were in the middle of a rather heavy but not outright brutal winter storm. I told him my phone would be on and let me know when Erich was stabilized and loaded into the ambulance for the 130km trip to the hospital. I picked my daughter up from work and we waited at the ER until the ambulance came in.

It is always hard when a child is hurt and in pain and this was no different. Erich is 8 years old and while he is a tough lad this is unlike anything he has ever experienced and I hope he never does again. Apparently the vehicle ran over his midsection but did so perfectly that the injuries sustained were minor. Oh yes, he is bruised, in pain but otherwise in very good health. This was a traumatic event for everyone and there were those who could not come to see him for various reasons. But he had two gramma's there, his aunt, myself (poppa) his parents and sister so this little tyke was surrounded by love. This is nothing I would ever wish on anyone but it is always a reminder of how fragile life can be.

Through my studio work I meet a lot of people that have been through many different kinds of situations and have dealt with them in their own way. I have always listened, had a box of tissue nearby (sometimes a roll of toilet paper...) and well... do what I can in the moment to soothe things over. I rarely if ever offer advice as I am not a pro and would never pretend to know more than I really do. But I do use what I do know to facilitate a calming atmosphere and a pretty good environment in which to work.

A couple of weeks ago I was asked to tak a portrait sitting of a young woman who wanted to see herself in a new light, as through someone elses eyes. I had done some work with her sister and Mishelle was the one who took her sister's grad photos so our work was familiar to her. It was a nice time of chatting and talking about different life events, laughter and some "I really like that picture...". With Whitney's permission I am including one of the photos from her sitting and would love to see her back anytime.

A Moment of Relaxtion

I will also be doing a bit more review of the past few weeks with sights on bring this blog very current with stories of some of the weddings I have been part of, my fight in learning a new piece of music for my daughter's upcomming wedding ( I really don't like the melody) and other such goings on. Apparently I am putting up Christmas lights tomorrow... Oh... Perhaps I will photograph the dazzling display for all to see...

I must practice...

2011-11-14T21:20:00.001-06:00

Over the next few days Iwill be more or less reviewing the past 6 months. There are more weddings toshare, more thoughts, some travels and whatever else comes to mind. Once I feelI am more or less on track I will begin to blog much as I had before and moreregular.

I am always open to thoughtsand suggestions, comments are free to leave and I don’t discriminate or blockanyone if they come through as true and identified. Anyone can make an anonymouscomment and if it is a viable one I will share it. If it exudes violence orhatred… I will share it and quite likely pick it apart as I have done before.For now… I am off to the piano top practice for my daughter’s wedding.

Thank you all…

From afar in time and distance...

2011-11-14T21:15:00.001-06:00

One travels from afar for 4hours of studio time, another travels a year between sittings and is high inconfidence and feeling all too wonderful about the changes she has made…

Shadows...

2011-11-14T21:08:00.001-06:00

A few from the “Shadows”collection…

Randomness...

2011-11-14T21:03:00.001-06:00

The following are randomimages from some of the work I have done over the past several months. They areby no means complete and I may have missed a few but will try to make it rightas time goes on… The first is a few from some of the studio and outdoor work.

Weddings and a recent update...

2011-11-14T20:36:00.003-06:00

It has been far too long since I have done anything at all with this blog. I realize it was a creative and spiritual outlet of sorts and in some cases just simple fun. It is time to get back into the habit I think… The following is a kind of quick review of the past half a year so while it may jump a bit and miss a few things that is OK as I feel I will be adding more each day as I did once before.

Since my last entry which kind of focussed around the early months of the year I have been involved in many events. Starting with a destination wedding in Banff at the end of April, It was a wonderful but short trip. The family was happy and celebrated the event.

I even had time to squeeze in a sitting with a model who I have worked with before. She was there for a wedding as well… oh wait, the wedding I was shooting was that of the model’s Mom so that is how it happened…

The scenery was wonderful as always and the snow was actually very nice when all 2 feet of it wafted down from the sky. I rather enjoyed the time there and as always sad when I leave our Rocky Mountains in the rear view mirror.

I began work in the yard when the weather allowed and made great progress. Some of our long weekends would be taken up with short trips with the new trailer. Brigitte and I are quite happy with it and I know we will use it as much as possible through the years to come. First trip out was to Pike Lake for the long weekend and this would be followed by a number of more trips and yes… a few weddings too…

The whole town of Carrot River came out for this one. While the ceremony was quiet and intimate on the farm the reception was a total blast. People from all over the province were there and of course the farm community was well represented. Friendly insults were bantered about extolling the virtue of Ford over Chevy or New Holland over John Deere… all in good fun and this was evident the whole weekend through.

July was a dash to Victoria where my son was getting married. While I did have a backup shooter arranged to come along and learn/help with photographing what I wasn’t able but I soon found myself without as the backup bailed for a rather flakey reason. Found out some new info later too which didn’t make things any better. However I was happily helped out through a collective on the island by Patrick who was most happy to come down from Parksville and give me a much needed hand.

We close February with dynamite...

2011-05-30T21:58:00.000-06:00

The first time I photographed Leigh was a number of years ago and I believe she was 16 at that time. I have watched her grow somewhat, meet a boy... fall in love and I will be photographing her wedding on December 31st of this year. Wow, time does fly. She and her fiance have purchased a house and will soon make it a home. While she is a lingerie specialist (OK ladies undergarment sales person) her man is a graphic designer she still finds time to come in for a sitting.

As a hobby model she has added her brand of humour and style to the work in the studio. I do have to get her outside on more alternative styles but with the studios second signature image coming from this lass I am most happy to continue working with her. Leigh did suprise me one day when she asked about being part of Shadows and Light. While this style of posing was not in her repertoire I agreed to give it a test run. Well, through her effort and work I have found her addition to the work has been wonderful and while I still have more to do for the project I am certain that she and her fiance Jonathon will be there...

Chantilly lace and February`s Chantelle...

2011-05-30T21:43:00.003-06:00

OK so there is no lace in this imagery but I am certain that Chantelle could (and will) pull off the look of a wild west school marm with a secret side. I have had a number shoots with Chantelle and she is always concerned we are getting the right look and strives to perfect her studio ability. She has a posing ability which will develop further and I hope to carry on working with her in several different genres.

Selected book image...

Chantelle is one of the key models in the book presentation the studio is working on. I have included a much tamer version of one of the images selected from her images as I do have a policy on certain things and this is a family blog. Sorry, most will just have to wait till the book is done and published to have a look. Those in the book get their copy for free...

Creepy and well... Just creepy.

2011-05-30T21:18:00.000-06:00

I was introduced to a painter who wished to explore the use of the human canvas for his work. What better model to draw into this project than the one who introduced me to Corey Brown in the first place. In comes Brittany. I give this girl a ton of credit. She stood for nearly 6 hours that day. About 3 hours of painting, shoot, more alterations to the canvas, shoot and even more additions of what could be described as decaying flesh.

This was the time we were seeing the civil turmoil in Egypt. My bride Brigitte along with my sister had a trip booked to the exotic land and were waiting to see if they were still going. The shoot subject itself dealt with the pain mother earth is in as the demon of humanity slowly tortures her. Her touch spreads the turmoil through the earth and the decay of humanity shyows as the flesh falls away from the talons that were once part of a beautiful young woman... or planet.

Aleisa warms February...

2011-05-30T21:03:00.000-06:00

We had an interesting winter. With a lot of snow over the course of several weeks, constant shovelling and in addition the temperature on the thermostat set higher have all brought different results. Brigitte has been working hard to maintain a healthy lifestyle so that she has an ability to ward off certain things like diabetes and so on. She has made some tremendous progress but not without some cost.

It is funny in a way how the human body reacts to certain things. The decrease in "bad" foods and weight loss has caused my bride's gall bladder to become stressed to the point it may have to be removed. Not to mention only that, with her improved form came the lack of ability to stay warm. Her body is having issues regulating its own internal heat. All to be expected and I worked around this by turning up the heat in the house even through the night, Not hogging the blankets as often and so on. Even our cats would curl up near or on her to help with the heat.

Aleisa

So why do I venture outside to do a shoot? Well, it is really simple. This is Saskatchewan... my first signature image was captured some years ago in February and I really needed to shoot outdoors. Aleisa braved the cold and will likely brave other elements we toss her way in great stride. The setting was simple. Using the largest studio space available (The entire City of Saskatoon) we set out to capture something relaxed, fresh and fun.

Along the redeveloped river bank in the downtown core all the way to where the new "south" bridge is well under construction we braved the cold and still quite enjoyed the time. It was likely the better part of two hours in -18C weather and a moderate breeze day we spent exploring and shooting. Today I share a couple of the captures from the day Aleisa warmed the air...

Brittany "bashes" the cold (in January)

2011-05-29T11:28:00.000-06:00

A dynamic model and one who is able to strike some interesting poses has an artistic vision for her work. From a set based on the "Black Swan" to her work in "Shadows" the spectrum is wide. With near porcelin skin it is much easier working a wider variety of lighting in studio with her than it is with those who insist on tanning. Really, tanning can be damaging to the skin and is natures way of defending itself against solar radiation. A "healthy" glow can be obtained without the risk of some kind of melanoma.

This January was frought with rebookings due to my own concerns. As of late I have been having more difficulty in low light situations. My ability to manually focus has diminished and I fear I would not finish what I needed to. Brittany was patient while I basically measured the distance from her to the lens and then double checked it with the camera's auto focus. I dislike using this feature as it is not as quick nor as sharp as the human eye. You don't always want to focus on the closest thing to the lens. Sometimes you want to catch the focus part way through the subject and let the depth of field catch the rest.

Anyway, the low light portion of Brittany's last set worked well but it was at this point I began to seriously consider or reconsider the value of having the studio much longer. My heartfelt thanks go out to Britt and her amazing patience. Brigitte (my bride) has been the most patient person of all, this I must thank her for.

More from the January Pasture...

2011-05-29T11:13:00.000-06:00

Beth has been a kind of fixture in my studio for several years now. We have done a variety of sittings from vintage glamour photographed in the prestigious Bessborough Hotel to hitting the leather and on horseback. I will of fond and not so fond memories of the equestrian shoot as this is when Beth was trampled by her mount seconds after a tremendous image.

Be that as it may some of her figure poses on horseback were outstanding and so is her attitude, even at this sitting. Oh, this is for AJ... Yes Beth is in a wedding gown but this is not a hint, subtle or otherwise. (at least not yet...) I am sure there will be more work done with her and I am hoping the conditions are more suitable for a frontier style of setting the next time we head out on horseback...

Janai in January

2011-05-29T10:41:00.000-06:00

Janai first came into the studio for a test sitting in December. There was an equipment failure of somesort so after only a few images I had to end the sitting. I did promise to bring her back in to get things completed and glad I did. You will see more work by Janai as the months roll on.

She is a graphics designer and the work I have seen come from her mind has been wonderful. While supporting her efforts in design I have encouraged her with the work she has been doing. While I don't offer advice I do share my opinion and I an confident she will do well with her future works...

Thumbs up Janai...

Has it been too long?

2011-05-28T17:13:00.000-06:00

I think I have negelected a part of my work for long enough. I started this blog a long time ago and have made over 850 entries since the beginning and added over 1500 images. I perhaps had more on my plate than I first thought or was busy with other things. Whatever the reason I am back and will do a kind of "catch up" over the next few days. This entry will sit for a day or two then I will add a review through imagery of the past 6 months along with various entries pertinant to the images.

My vision has not deteriorated as much as it could have but I do know that could also change. Perhaps the slight (I still indulge in donuts now and then) increase of healthier foods has helped as has the reduction in smoking. The alternative is some sort of intervention of a spiritual nature that is going to give me the time I need to finish up photographic related work. In light of this I have not booked any weddings for 2012 nor do I plan to at this point. I may on a case by case basis but no more than a month in advance. I do have a partner who can do some of them and a "sister" studio that will take up any extra work so I am more comfortable than I was before.

Aleisa (Shadows and Light)

For now I leave you with an image of Aleisa who has been waiting ever so patiently for this blog to come back to life.

Now into November...

2010-11-30T21:47:00.000-06:00

November rolled in as it usually does, directly after Halloween. It was a busy month in the studio as well as with-in the family. The first of the month is the birthday of my youngest grandchild. McKenzie was visited by friends and family and while I am certain she forgot about all the people and cake after her nap, it seemed she quite enjoyed the attention. I have yet to get s super good photo of her but when I do this cutie will be properly introduced to you all.

I won’t be writing about everyone I worked with this month but without their support and dedication to the studio I would not be going anywhere fast… or at all. Included in this entry is an image from each shoot except for two. Aleisa and Samantha are not included with images for this entry as the work undertaken by these two is not material I will publish on a family oriented blog. Not only that, some of the work by Samantha was for herself as a boudoir sitting so is of a personal to her nature. Sorry guys… I do have rules that govern photo publication.

So enjoy some of the images from a series of sittings in November…

Leigh - A Studio Favourite

Jenn - Now with more confidence.

Jenna - Model / MUA / Mom

Haley - Captures our heart.

Jacey - Model and Miss Teen

Kimmie - Spirit of Fire

Juanita - Business woman and Mom

A special time was spent at the Field of Honour at the Woodlawn Cemetery. It was November 11th and along with my children, my wife Brigitte, my Mother and four of my grandchildren we layed a wreath and paid respects to those who served and paid the supreme sacrifice. We also took a moment and said silent prayers at the graveside of my father who lays to rest just a few meters from the wonderful memorial that overlooks the Field of Honour. One day, I too will rest there and hopefully the tradition started by my eldest son will continue for generations.

Go in peace brave soldier... you will not be forgotten.

October and Wedded bliss...

2010-11-30T21:05:00.000-06:00

Sasha & Stephen

October can be an interesting month weather wise and with the amount of rain and really lousy weather we have had for most of the summer It is nice to have a nice day or two. October was an excellent month and a perfect month for weddings. I had the great opportunity to be part of two wonderful events and was there to capture the events as they unfolded.

Jessica & Jarodd

Near the beginning of October was the wedding of Sasha and Stephen. I was joined by Mishelle of Mishelle Galarneau Photography and Jamie Lawrence of Captured Souls Photography who were there to help cover the event as well as gain experience for their own subsequent work. Two years ago I photographed the nuptials of Sasha’s sister Brandi and was asked to come back for this one. Well, there is one more daughter to go so we may go for the hat trick but Connie is adamant about not getting married. I chuckled as this was the same way I was… then I met my bride Brigitte and have never been happier except for the joy of my children.

Robin

The second last weekend I spent the day with Jessica and Jarodd and enjoyed a wonderful event in the Western Development Museum. This afforded a much different atmosphere for the wedding and for the photographs. The super thing about it was it was a single stop event and while the supper dishes were being cleared away and the room set for a dance, all the guests had the opportunity to wander through the whole museum at their leisure. It was fabulous.

As far as studio shooting goes the return of Robin was a refreshing time. Much like her sister Amber, her smile is warming, her humour can be dry but her desire to help get the image right is 100% there. As a matter of interest… I will be shooting Robin’s wedding in August 2011 so hopefully a few more shoots before that time rolls in.

Jordan

Several years ago I began working with

Jordan

and have watched her develop into a fine young woman and super Mom. There was a period of time where the agreement I had with her Mom was exercised and

Jordan

could not compete in a shoot out amongst other models. However, she has learned from this and strives even harder to reach a goal that is possible but the odds are huge against her success. But all it takes is one image in front of the right person at the right time to go big…

September rolls through...

2010-11-13T21:26:00.034-06:00

September 2010

Pam and Adam ( 18 Sep 10 )

Aleisa

September was a busy month this year with work and studio projects I was kept pretty busy. Not to mention this was also the month my daughter would be getting married. I tried my best to stay away from the preparations but at the same time made myself available if there was anything I could do to help. I knew my camera gear would be in exile so I enlisted the talents of Mishelle (a student of mine) to have the honours of being the key photographer. Jamie (another student and model) would be her back up and second camera. I had no fear the events of the day would be captured well.

Jacey

In any event I had the opportunity to advance the project work at hand with several people who have been key in the development of my project. Without the dedication of these and the other people involved I likely would not have gotten too far. I think I need the studio diversion to keep my mind off the fact my baby was getting married. I am sure she will be very happy and Adam is OK. I still think he is a bit of an odd ball however he is a fabulous father and Dad to his son Addison. I have spoken often about my grandson and as some of you know or will soon find out I have a new granddaughter. McKenzie is a year old and a real sweetheart. I know I will be one who will cry when any of my grandkids gets married…

Jessie

I also knew that September was the lead into October and this year I had two weddings I was shooting and they were a mere two weeks apart. It would be a busy month as well so I didn’t book too much for the studio. Oh yes, in the middle of all that lets throw in Thanksgiving. September had some of the best weather days and with the time I had, did what I could to get more done in the yard. Armed with a new (to me) gas lawnmower I set about getting more things accomplished. With the nicer weather it was a good time to prune the dead branches from the tree in the yard. Now I have a big pile of branches in the yard but will use some of them as kindling for the fire pit and haul the rest out to the community compost heap in the spring.

Kailey

Just to let you know I feel I am forgetting some when I make my “history” entries, if that is the case I do apologize and will get that fixed. Once I am current I think that won’t be so much of a problem. There is a lot that sometimes rolls through my mind and slowly and bit by bit I get things in line. I hope to use the coldest months to work solely on my book, practice my music and prepare for the next growing season. For now though… watch here as October is just around the corner.

Cheers…

Month at a glance...

2010-11-10T23:37:00.000-06:00

August 2010

Tasha (MUA)

The rain continues and I am very discouraged as I can’t work in the yard as much as I would like. It seems this is one thing I do enjoy doing that actually causes me to sweat, hurt, become tired and yet satisfied as things slowly begin to take shape. In any case August was the most down month I have had in years.

Samantha

While I was able to work on some project work and develop sittings based on my work it was still a month where I seemed to have lost my drive or ambition to go any further. I cannot yet pin down any one cause but could see where some things could have been partly the reason. The rain did nothing to help (cut our water bill down a lot though). I did question my continuing work quite seriously and was ready to toss it all in and dedicate my time to eradicating the ants.

Brittany

I worked with several wonderful people through this month despite my slump and each will have an image in this entry. I reviewed all the work and sincerely hope I did not miss anyone. Each has their area of work and specialty when it comes to the studio and while there are those I have worked with in the past and no longer do but wish I did, it is with the efforts and support of these people I can find the strength to continue.

Tasha (Model)

Last month my Mom sold the family home as it was getting to be too much for her. It is a two story home and had a lot of stairs. Oh it was very comfortable and had the most wonderful garden but we all agreed it was time. The last day there was not a lot in the house but I have seen it like that before when painting and renovations were being done. But once the furniture was out of the house… I have not been back since. I have not even driven down the street to have a look and despite agreeing with the move and doing all I could to help my Mom with the transition I simply can’t go back.

Perhaps I am afraid of the emotions I will experience? I am not certain but the last vision I have of the home I came home to in 1958 was with Mom, my brother Jim and his wife Nancy, sister Susan and her husband Wally, and my bride Brigitte. It was full of family as it had been many times over the past 55 years. Now it sits empty… I have no plans of returning to the old neighbourhood.

Jacey

I had planned to go to the coast sometime in August but when an employer became ill I more or less consented to going in and taking care of business while he rested and became well again. This was yet another blow this summer to travel plans and to my desire to continue working. I searched for something that would bring me back out of the slump and it started to come back to me after shooting with 3 of the key models and a Goldwing motorcycle. I was asked by Jaro if I would take a photograph of his wife and family with the machine and I agreed. With the later addition of Tasha, Brittany, Jacey, and with the assistance of Sam (also a studio model) we spent a good chunk of time blocking off the road to the Credit Union Centre (thank you Scott and Heather).

A Happy Jaro

I felt better after this outdoor set and once again began to imagine various images in my once idle brain. There are those I would like to continue to work with, those I would like to work with again and a few I must work with before I can no longer shoot. I do know I will continue on as long as I can and with the assistance and support of my very patient mate Brigitte I will do my best to complete projects and use the cold winter ahead to further work on my manuscript.

As a note… since the re-birth of the blog I have become more stable in my thoughts. Until I boot up Raven Shield…

July fades away...

2010-11-08T19:41:00.002-06:00

Fort Walsh

July 2010

Let us bring July to a close… There is one thing I look forward to every year was started by Brigitte a few years back. It is the Haskins Family Annual Camping Trip. Every year we have tried to hold it in a Saskatchewan Regional or Provincial camp ground. First time was at Brightsand Regional Park which is northwest of North Battleford. The following year we hit Pike Lake Provincial Park, then last year we all met at Buffalo Pound which saw a day trip into Moose Jaw where Brigitte and I took in a tunnel tour. This year we all gathered at Danielson Provincial Park on Lake Diefenbaker.

When the family portion was over Brigitte and I carried on to Cypress Hills Provincial Park where we toured the history of the area, looked out over the prairies from nearly 1300 meters (4265 ft) above sea level. What a view… it was unfortunate the sky was misty because apparently from there you could see up to 100km away. Not that I can anymore but knowing I could if the conditions were right was cool. Besides Brigitte exclaiming “wow” told me enough. We did tour the fort and saw some cool demonstrations of historical firepower and learned about life back some 130 years ago. We even tried some of the food from back then. Mind you it was fresh just prepared in a historically correct way.

When we returned from the fort to our campsite I took the short cut and even used the 4WD option in the Nitro to venture across a coulee and up the side of a hill where a road once was. Should have stopped to take a photo but I knowingly left my camera gear at home. In hindsight a mistake but a little late now… This is a place I could return to and recommend it to anyone.

The final three...

2010-11-08T19:21:00.000-06:00

Jacey

July 2010

July was a busy month all in all. I worked with several others through the month and each brought with them a certain look and drive which is one of the many reasons I continue. It is with the support of those I work with, for and in the case of Brigitte who tolerates me everyday I am able to continue. Jacey is one who has been through the studio several times and is one who can created such a steep angle in her back arch it is likely I could (and will) do one shoot based solely on that. A supporter and one of the subjects in “Shadows and Light” her physique lends itself to many unique and oblique angles.

Jillian

Jillian is a woman who has no desire to be a model but prefers to work in the studio for a number of reasons. Mainly she simply likes to pose and have her photograph taken but more importantly since seeing the work she has done with me so far has joined the ranks of the “Short List” and will continue as long as she has time and her daughter allows. (Just a wee one and still needs Mom lots…)

Chantelle

Another Mom in the group is Chantelle and while there are still more areas to work on her drive is full on both in her studio work and in her family life. I have always relished family and with the family I have gained since meeting Brigitte it is sometimes all I can do to keep up with who is who and what is going on. It is enough I remember half of what I need to at home and about the same at the studio but over time I am sure my memory will become more organized or perhaps simply shut off.

Either way, without the support of family, friends and colleagues I would not be where I am today…

All but washed away...

2010-11-07T20:45:00.000-06:00

The sun was blazing down and I had been watching the forecasts hoping I would have at least one good day for outdoor shooting. This was it and after checking on a few places I like to use I soon came to the realization that a lot of them were either under water or had simply washed away. I quickly checked a few reserve places and found one that would simply have to do. This year has been difficult as a lot of my key locations had succumbed to the elements and were drowning or inaccessible except by helicopter.

One of the more patient people I have had the honour of working with is Brittany. She is a dancer, able to pull of some painful looking poses and has a desire to help out when it comes to concepts as well as studio work in general. She was ready for the adventure of the day whatever the ground conditions might bring...

In any case we ventured out and yes we got muddy feet and trod on some unstable ground. We made it to the river’s edge and set off doing what we both love to do and that is create with the elements. Here is Brittany… an inspiration, full have glee and has a wonderful smile and a listening ear with a desire to continue to get the image just right. Not wanting to stop until the image has been captured. Thank you for your support Brittany…

A simple refuge...

2010-11-07T20:17:00.003-06:00

July was a much more productive month in the studio and at home as well. Despite all the rain I have managed to clear the property of ants. The previous owners had planters all over the place and the back yard was laid out in the same way a cat would spread litter or a dog when he upchucks part of your favourite shoes he chewed on the day before. No rhyme or reason for anything. After moving 1800 pounds of bricks, 3000 pounds of concrete pads which now stand stacked in one corner with another 1600 pounds of them under a tin shed which has to go.

Kelly

Well, working in the yard is a passion of mine much like being in the studio. It was not unlike me to do two shoots in a day and then dig up and neutralize a half dozen ant colonies in a day. Bit by bit, piece by piece the work is being done. Even though it is based on a 5 year plan I simply want it done sooner. Brigitte has been helpful and extremely patient with me as this was also the beginning of a creative slump. Having feared I lost some of the passion I had for my work I was looking for something or someone to help me to regain the drive I once had.

One day at a time I struggled with the yard. We had so much rain it wasn’t easy and very frustrating. Feeling somewhat depressed I hoped that working in the yard would bring things back to light. I remember my Dad toiling long hours in his garden with the flowers and other plants making sure everything was perfect. My mother continued the work in the yard after Dad passed away and her last full season in the yard began with making sure the flower beds were perfect for the day I took my bride’s hand.

Melissa

The garden along with the studio is my refuge, my place of creativeness and my passion. With this entry I include two images… One of them is of Melissa who came into the studio to learn how I approach things as a photographer. She has a passion and a love for the camera and was eager to learn my somewhat different way of working the studio. I hope she was able to take away with her some of my techniques and that she can adapt them to her own style.

The second image is if Kelly. A strong woman presently going through university and one day will teach our youth. Well, hope her students pay attention as this is a woman not to be reckoned with. She was excited in the studio and was full of smiles when she saw the first actual print from her sitting. I suppose these two women are one reason I continue to push myself through this slump… Thank you to them both and of course to my bride’s love and patience and the fact she hasn’t shot me yet…

No time for much...

2010-11-07T11:32:00.004-06:00

June 2010

June was a month full of weddings and it left very little time for much work in the studio never mind much of a personal life. I only book 4 weddings a year (some solid and valuable advice from a good friend… thanks Ben) but when you have two in a month and one of them is a location wedding it can be very time consuming as you end up with a lot of images to review and proofs to prepare in a short amount of time. It is all worth it in the end when you see smiles and excitement but again, leaves little for other work.

I did manage to find the time to do a sitting with Jessie. She has come along way since her first shoots over two years ago. She wants to improve her style and is excited about the project work she tried out for. While she attends university in her chosen field we will still find time to work on various concepts. She has no desires on being a model but enjoys her time in the studio and it works for her.

The photograph included in this image is Jessie as she works her way through the studio and finds her niche in the work being undertaken. Thank you very much Jess for your enthusiasm…

Wedding Bells...

2010-11-06T21:53:00.003-06:00

June 2010

Full of Joy

One of the weddings I had the honour pf photographing this year was of Tryna and Freddy. I have known this couple for several years and captured photos of Tryna prior to giving birth to their son. It was a very enjoyable event right from one of the bridesmaids waxing her legs in the middle of the street to the last dance of the evening.

It was a joy to have Mishelle along with me for this event. Her insight as to different ways of framing an image is a learning experience for this old dog. Being a student of mine as well, some of my work and techniques has been embraced by Mishelle and I hope she takes everything she has learned and develops a style suited only to herself.

This image is of one very happy bride who saw things go wrong, smiled and still had a wonderful day for her and her husband… despite updating Facebook prior to the “kiss”…

Congratulations to you both…

Where do I begin?

2010-11-06T21:17:00.001-06:00

June 2010

Where does one start after being away from something like a simple blog for so long?

Well… set a new format and start banging the keys to see what comes up. The past months have been interesting, disheartening to a degree and refreshing as well. Along with a number of inspiring shoots with key models I have been witness to some fun and interesting events. I think being away from my blog was part of the problem when it came to a crash I suffered over the summer months. Not to mention unseasonal rains also slowing things down including a planned trip to the coast.

On a brighter note: I had the privilege of being the photographer at several weddings and along with Mishelle (Mishelle Galarneau Photography) and Jamie (Captured Souls Photography) provided super coverage to all events including the wedding of my youngest child Pamela. I was right in the selection of the shooters for her wedding and will have them back for my oldest daughter’s wedding when it happens (he still has to ask…) More on all the weddings in subsequent entries.

Chinese Secret?

I will look at sharing thoughts and images from various events over the past 6 months or so and see where it all goes. Along with my thoughts about various life occurrences I will share the progress of my book project, studio work as well as the news on what has become to be known as the “Short List”.

Today’s image comes from a sitting back in June. Juanita known for her talents as a tattoo artist, esthetician, and stylist has a expansive tattoo along her right side and arm… but not in this image. It has been the topic of an ongoing Facebook chat as to the method used to remove the ink from this “Human Canvas”

Blessed from above...

2010-05-20T21:15:00.001-06:00

The wedding was very small and quite dignified. The bride was beautiful and when she was spotted by her groom you could see the tears in his eyes. Here is a man who was beaming and his bride was glowing. The weather was in flux and it was supposed to rain. The clouds were threatening and the heat was incredible. Dressed in black the men as well as the two photographers (Mishelle and I) were feeling the heat. There were a handful of guests in attendance and I think this union was blessed before it even began.

The Bride’s parents were not sure if they could make it but did, the Maid of Honour made it from Toronto as did an army buddy of the groom. They wanted it very small and this it was. Although a group touring through the garden did stop and watch as the ceremony took place. Nothing wrong with 30 – 40 extra guests dropping by.

The clouds grew thick and dark as we were taking the photographs after the ceremony but there was always a beam of sunlight on the happy couple. It did rain but it was gentle, warm and inviting… it could not have been more perfect a rain. With big and warm raindrops, a slight breeze it was as if God was weeping tears of joy as two of his children found love and sealed it with a kiss.

The Image Lives On...

2010-05-17T20:10:00.001-06:00

I stare at the sheet music and wonder why this piece I am learning is creating difficulty. Mind you it is written by Sir Andrew Lloyd Webber and is a spectacular composition. While I have been working on the right hand notes I have been discovering the multi-track recording capability of my keyboard (the one that Brigitte gave to me for my birthday) and found out that I can plug my laptop into it through a clever little thing called a USB port. Not only that, but my old Casio is also capable of hooking into everything as well.

One step at a time, one note at a time I think I will be able to master this piece or at least most of it before her wedding. I am going for the full pipe organ sound with other background music that will or should enhance the bit I do and cover the mistakes I may make. Anyway, with-in the privacy of my headphones I am slowly learning the vision of a master.
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There are many times I find myself deep in thought about a few things. Through music and images I can sometimes take this thought and get it organized. There are times when I do get this far away glazed over look (same kind a cop gets when he smells fresh donuts) and Brigitte begins to worry. Not in a bad way mind you but my mind tends to get carried away with the development of a single image. This image should be able to stir someone’s thoughts, provoke emotion or at least create a smile in one who views it. I have captured some of these images through the years and it has not been easy.

I have travelled several thousand kilometres so I have the right rock and the right horizon, taking thousands of photographs in all the seasons to find the one image. When I do find that one image I tend to share it with everyone. The project “Shadows and Light” has brought a number of these images to light and while there are a huge number I cannot share with you there is a few that I can. Rest assured I will continue to work as long as I can but even now have noticed difficulty in low light settings. I now have to be extra careful with focusing while shooting in a dimly lit studio. I had one “Shadows” sitting that most of the images were out of focus. I have relied on my eyes up till now as they along with my hand is quicker than the automatic setting but I may resign myself to the fact that I will have to use auto-focus for low light work.
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The time may come when my work will stop, the time will come when the vision no longer supports my work but I will smile and know that the “Image Lives On”

Little Girl Lost

2010-04-29T17:55:00.000-06:00

A little over two decades ago a new life began. A tiny little girl began her existence on earth with an entire lifetime ahead of her. She was put on this earth through her parents by God to do two things… to love and to be loved.

As she grew she learned, her father was mesmerized by her dark brown eyes and as with all of his children would do anything to make sure his child learned as she grew, was healthy, happy and would weep when any of them were in pain. This was his youngest child and would be his last miracle. While he taught her many things the one thing he was certain to talk about was Jesus.

He would also share with her some of the other fascinating things about how other people worshipped within their own religion. While he was not a religious man he was and still is spiritual. He believes a church is not necessary to be spiritual but a belief and faith in God or some supreme being is. His teachings have had an effect on all of his children and each has their own true beliefs about God and Jesus.

As this little girl developed into a young woman it was apparent that her beliefs were strong and very personal. Her life did not revolve around God but she respected the entity and used that respect in the way she dealt with other people and how she approached things that would come up. Her friends were many and each had a special place and while it was painful for her father to let her go there was a time when it was evident.

She bore a son who was a miracle in his own way. Deep brown eyes like his mother and was loved by everyone. His father was an interesting fellow who would soon realize a life long commitment to his son. With his support and that of the now grown little girl the new baby was baptized in a Christian church. The boy’s grandfather was proud and knew that part of his life’s task was to teach his grandson about God and how the Supreme Being had an effect on his own life.

The time approaches as this baby boy with the deep brown eyes grows and his Mother and Father decide that it was time they unite in marriage. To the girl’s father a marriage is a union of two people who love each other and are prepared to work together for a common goal. In this case the goal is to raise a little boy to be a happy and healthy adult. To be a man who is free to learn and make his own choices about religion and about God. While the father of this boy may not be religious I strongly believe he does have a spiritual side.

This spiritual side is what guides him and helps him decide between right and wrong. It helps him in his daily work by encouraging him to learn and to advance his career or job choices. This spiritual side helps him through long shifts and gives him the patience to work with less desirable people or to teach others how to be more efficient. It teaches him and guides him through life’s challenges and tasks. The spiritual side is there when he enjoys fishing and catching fish to feed himself and his family. Sharing his catch with others as Jesus shared and fed his people.

The little girl now grown has made several choices and has worked hard to be happy, her father has watched as his daughter has worked so very hard for what she believes in and feels that she has sacrificed enough. It is time for her betrothed to work with her in the final moments leading up to the big day. Her father feels that each can set their own vows, write their own beliefs and while one may want to mention God and Jesus the other need not do so to make the union complete. Rest assured that a prayer will be said at the celebration supper and that God and Jesus will be a huge part of the day even if just through the hearts and love of family and friends.

May God be with you little girl, may the hand of Jesus guide you through your life and be there at your side as you grow and as your family, your friends and your church continue to support you and your family.

Shalom

The Time is Now?

2010-04-13T19:52:00.000-06:00

Is it time to devote my efforts to my work or attempt to update this blog? Many things have developed in the past months and all have been good. The studio van with the images of Kelsey, Kimberly and Leigh on it has been retired. I am a bit sad to see it go but the cost of repairs was put into a new vehicle and I am quite happy with her.

Brigitte is doing fine and is now sporting this cool 4x4 and loving her work and the kids. The studio is still in the same place and I would love to have something closer to ground floor but I don't have a huge desire to move things either. "Shadows" is progressing along at a comfortable rate with yet new angles being discovered with the various light sources. I do want to be careful to capture what I think I will need in a final piece that will be satisfying.

I have had to whittle down the roster and am trying to keep it confined to those who have the desire and drive for all the work being done with a few being specialists in their chosen genre. None of this could not have taken place with out the wonderful support of my bride and my family.

Oh, my Mom has sold her home... some 55 years after Dad built it the time seemed right for Mom to move on. A recent illness made it very difficult to move about and considering this house is a two story it was an effort just to climb the stairs. I give my all to her, a brave woman indeed. While it will be sad to see the house go it is time and like the van will be but a memory.

Some images from Studio 5…

A Review - December 2009

2010-01-09T21:57:00.000-06:00

The kitchen is done and the painting and other work is nearly complete as we move into the month of festive celebrations. I extended my studio work this year into December as I needed to get somewhat caught up after injuring my foot in October. The main theme of the work being done was Christmas and while I wanted to be able to accommodate everyone’s desire for studio time I was firm in shutting down for Christmas on the 15^th. This I managed to do with a lot of understanding from everyone concerned.

First in was Kymberli. Here is a girl who is going to school to improve her grade standing, works part time at a local health club and at the studio and still finds the time to dedicate to the studio work. As a model her ability in the studio has improved 100 times and as a young woman her view on herself has also seen an overwhelming turn for the better. As long as she wants she will have a place in Studio 5 and in the hearts of those who have met her and have had the rare opportunity to work with her.

Michelle has returned and did a three part sitting this month. One set for herself as she was looking for some special Christmas photos to hang onto as well as give to her boyfriend. The second part was with her man as a couple and they both seemed very happy together. While he was a bit apprehensive at first it didn’t take him long to loosen up and enjoy his time in the spotlight. While Michelle was in the studio we touched on some of the work she had started and we caught up on things as well. I enjoyed this shoot very much and was glad to have the time with her.
16 years ago Minna and her family left

Bosnia

at about the same time the troops from

Canada

arrived. Making their new home here this young lady overcame language and social barriers to begin her journey at becoming a Canadian. Highschool dances and other events were now part of her life and while she is still reserved in her personality she came alive in the studio. This was her first sitting here and I can see where the talents lay and where some work is needed. All in all the sitting was very successful and more will be seen and heard of this very unique European woman.

This was a very busy Christmas for us this year as it was Brigitte’s turn to host the family get together for her side of the family. Everyone came including a niece and nephew that she was not expecting and was joyful when she saw them there. It is a bit complicated but needless to say everyone ate well and had a wonderful time. A lot of food was prepared and enjoyed and the company was wonderful. Christmas day had us traveling to my sister’s home were we would have a quiet supper with her family and my mom.

Boxing Day was another day of preparations. Another turkey was stuffed, a ham placed in the oven as it was my family’s turn to some to the house. Everyone showed up and it was noisy. My brother and his wife were in from Victoria, my son and his family from North Battleford and my other three kids along with all the grandkids, grandma, my niece from Abbotsford and just everyone. Only one that was missing really was my nephew Dennis who had other plans or perhaps was called into work. Not sure but it really doesn’t matter as everyone was happy and it was wonderful to visit with them all. Albeit I would have liked more time to visit with some of the family but I was following the directions of the Admiral and doing what I could to ensure a wonderful time.

Dec 28^th

Time I now have to relax and rest from the past weeks of preparations and celebrations of the Christmas season while remembering those who are no longer with us or who cannot be with their families out of a sense of duty to their community, city, and their country here and abroad.

A Review - November

2010-01-09T20:55:00.000-06:00

An interesting month as well as a tad busy… It started with taking possession of the new house on Nov 10^th. That night I ripped out the 1970’s carpet that was still in the master bedroom. My son (now a new Dad on Nov 1^st with the birth of McKenzie) Reg came to help me… remember I still have a foot that is somewhat busted. Anyway, the carpet is out and we further our plans for the work we need to do. November 11^th after the Remembrance Day thing we do at the “Field of Honour” at Woodlawn we went for our usual lunch. Most of the kids were there and so was Mom and my sister Sue. Dad is buried in the place of honour and we have made it a yearly thing to visit the memorial and place a wreath while music plays in the background. We share this moment with everyone and each person in the cemetery that day stood while the “Last Post” was played which was followed by Two Minutes of Silence in honour of those “Who Walked for us All”.

The retreat sounded on cue and soon people began to mill about once again visiting family and those around the grounds. It was a very solemn but needed event for us. We did need to get moving on to lunch as our new home was having an energy assessment done so we could make use of the various grants. The next day a crew was over ripping out our old furnace and water heater and installing a new high efficiency unit. New kitchen was to arrive soon and Brigitte along with a band of volunteers set out to get rid of the circus colours on the walls and bring the house and its décor up to date.

Day by day the house took shape and we were soon moving into it. Along with the work being done upstairs I was downstairs ripping out a wall to make the stairs exit into a friendly scene instead of the laundry and furnace room. I managed to get things done right and Mike Holmes would not be entirely upset with me. I did not cut corners but I am certain he would find something not quite up to his standards. With minimal work being done in the studio as it was difficult to climb the stairs I will once again post images as a bit of a review. Once I am caught up on this insane blog the entries should be more regular, stable and personal…

A Review - October

2010-01-09T20:29:00.000-06:00

October presented itself as an interesting month. Brigitte had been offered a permanent position in the city so this put us in a more secure position to seriously consider buying a house. Reagan is our real estate agent who has been very patient with us while we viewed house after house. Well… this month we found one and put in an offer. On the ninth I went to the house as it was having an inspection done to see if there were any problems we should be aware of. You know… a mechanic looking over a car before you buy…

Anyway it had snowed the night before and when I came out of the house I found a tiny patch of ice under the snow as I approached my van and took a rather nasty fall. My left foot went out from under me and I watched as I (seemed to be slow motion) slowly fell and my left foot (now askew) and leg slid under the van. That is when I felt it pop. Reagan helped me up and I could move but went to the emergency to have it looked at. Anyway I left the ER with a broken foot and now a schedule that would be delayed.

Be that as it may we went ahead with the deal on the house and I managed to make it to the studio for the one shoot I had scheduled some time ago and wanted to be sure was done. Kymberli has always been good at being there early and doing her absolute best to improve her skills in the studio and this was a large shoot with Kendra (MUA/Stylist) attending as well for different looks. So with the few days before my foot and whatever I could salvage I will simply review the month in photos…

A Review - Part 6E

2009-12-27T22:29:00.000-06:00

Her description of the idea to me came across well and the idea behind it was to use her own paintings to hide an otherwise nude form behind it. She used her own art work to cover her body in a way that was both appealing and had value to it as an artistic form. The concept was good and the final images met with her happy approval. I was happy to be part of this idea and also happy she loved the results. It is nice when two people can collaborate on a project with success. Equally so a collaboration like this would also provide two minds working on a single idea and learning from the experience should it not work out the way it was imagined.

Some people consider the individual bodies as pieces of art. Either through tattoos or with their own individual physique. Ashley is one who has a bit of both. Her well defined form presents new opportunities in the studio with some of the project work and her few tattoos when captures add to the form. While I am not sure any more ink will be done that has no bearing on the work at hand. Ashley will be back in the studio in the New Year where more exploration of her form will be done in “Shadows and Light” as well as other sports related work. Bikinis in the snow comes to mind as that seems to be a very popular yearly sitting with Studio 5. Always well attended and a lot of fun…

A Review - Part 6D

2009-12-27T21:52:00.000-06:00

Experience comes in many forms… Jamie has a top spot at Studio 5 with her love for the studio and being in front of the camera. Her desire to be a model is driving her to improve with each sitting and try new things. While she has restricted herself in the styles of work she does this has not inhibited her ability to improve and bring her work to a new and exciting level each time she is in the studio. I am also honoured by her request that I be her wedding photographer in 2011 when she and her fiancé are to be wed. I am certain that there will be a bit of the model in Jamie that will show up then as well.

Leigh brings an attitude to the studio which was once irritating but has now been realized as her way of striving for perfection. I have worked with her under some trying circumstances and in unusual conditions and not one shoot has failed. Each one has a new life to it and her work. The ability is only surpassed at the next shoot with some new angle or pose. I will be a pleasure to work with her over then next few years or so and bring her portfolio to the level she desires. She is a hobby model and enjoys her time in the studio. I will also be shooting her wedding when it comes up sometime in 2011 as well. Boy, booked well into 2011 with weddings…

A Review - Part 6C

2009-12-27T21:43:00.000-06:00

Some new outfits came in over the past few weeks and a lot of the models wanted to work with them. Not everyone will get the chance but those who show the dedication will get first shot at anything that comes in. Kristen is one such person who still needs some coaching with facial expressions and being able to work outside without sunglasses. I will be setting her up for some shoots with a couple of the more experienced people who will help her along. A lot of practicing can be done at home. I have mentioned to some to use their camera or cell phones to shoot themselves as they practice. They also know that when they are ready or want to try some of the things they have practiced at home it is fairly easy to book studio time. At the moment there is a wait of about a month and that will vary.

One who is always a hoot to work with is Tasha. She brings a different style and attitude to the studio which seems to come across in her work. She has subtle expressions which will come across as innocent to impish with the slight change in the position of her head or a bit of a crooked smile. Tasha has been in the studio for nearly three years now and has worked as a model and has done some makeup work as well. I look forward to her coming in again to finish some of the project work she had started last year.

A Review - Part 6B

2009-12-27T21:16:00.000-06:00

The month was very busy in the studio as well as my own life. Well ones life is as busy as you make it and with two weeks away in August it was time to get things rolling and do my best to get caught up. I worked with several talented people through the month both on studio skills as well as portfolio development. While I can only do so much I have been able to give several people some of the tools they need to go out and seek other opportunities. Some have been successful and others are still working at it.

Tremendous strides and hard work has been the key in the development of some of the people I have been working with then there were a couple who simply sloughed off their commitment and will not be returning to the studio at all. I will spend my time with those who want to practice and excel in the studio. While they still know that their chances are slim it would be non existent if they did not try.

We had a great opportunity to work with Alina who has been working as a model in the international arena. She liked the work we are doing and wanted to do some sets with us. So one of our MUA’s (Kendra) took charge of that duty as well as styling and we set out and did 3 sets of which one was a vintage look. Alina has been back since the sitting and utilized the studio for some photographic work of her own. This is an outstanding young woman and has a place in the studio anytime she asks. She is a pleasure to work with and such a dedicated individual.

A Review - Part 6A

2009-12-27T21:14:00.000-06:00

September started out with the most elegant “princess” wedding I have ever been a part of. Over a year ago Mishelle had asked if I would photograph her wedding on the long weekend. She has been in the studio as a model as well as a student and I was happy to take care of that for her. The setting was elegant and glamorous and I was in awe when I walked into the venue. The décor was what I have only seen on television before and would be wise to take this time to get whatever readings and test shots in that I could.

With a bridal party of 17 (Bride and Groom included) it would be more of a challenge but you know I was up for it. This was a happy day for this young woman and everything went very well. I sincerely hope (as with any new couple) that their life is full of joy and happiness and they laugh and smile each day.

A Review - Part 5

2009-12-25T22:20:00.000-06:00

My last day on the road… I called Brigitte and she sounded horrible. A nasty cold or virus had beset my bride which made me want to get home even more. Now when we spoke I was in Golden, BC and had pretty much said I would be staying there for the night. I refueled the van, bought a snack and a coffee and sat on the bench outside the store for a few minutes. After recalculating my travel time with a pen and paper then confirming it with the GPS I soon left Golden. Now when Brigitte reads this she will find out I carried on through the night and a few hours later I bedded down for some rest at a weigh scale just west of Calgary.

I awoke early enough and started on my way arriving in Red Deer at about 830 and had some breakfast. I was to meet up with Katlyn and do some field work with her and see this bridge she seemed to like to photograph. I had time to check out a few things in Red Deer and soon was on the road to join Katlyn at Big Valley.

We arrived and she recommended we head to the bridge first. This is an older steel arched bridge that supports one lane of traffic. It towers above the river and it was a treat to work around it and try to capture some of the angles. The sight that I liked the most (bridge pictures later…) was the view along the valley. Steep banks along one side that had been cut through the softer sandstone rock and what appeared to be a calm river flowing through. But the current under the surface was anything but calm.

We headed back to Big Valley and watched as the old steam locomotive brought in the excursion train. Apparently the train had just been robbed back in the hills by six gun toting bandits on horse back. Yes this is a tourist attraction but having seen these kinds of robberies on old western movies I think it would be kind of cool to witness it first hand. I was also treated to the historic value of Big Valley when I was able to walk through the skeletal remains of an old roundhouse. The concrete base to the turntable is still there and so are the service pits and walls but the support beams and roof are long gone. This is definitely worth a trip back to explore further. Thank you Kat for showing me this bit of history.

I felt the need to continue and set the GPS for home. I was soon on Highway 7 headed back toward home and it didn’t seem to take long and I was back in Saskatchewan and soon a few miles from home. I arrived home a good 24 hours early and was a bit happier when I felt the passionate hug of my bride. If it was not for her support this journey would not have happened. She was ill and I needed to be there.

A Review - Part 4

2009-12-25T15:27:00.000-06:00

It was early and I was near the front of the line when it came to boarding the ferry for the journey home. I was looking forward to having coffee with my niece and programmed the GPS to help me find the way. I figured I would follow the path it lead me on and while GPS devices will take you the shortest way it is not always the sensible way… I came to a long line of cars about a mile before my next turn and figured that perhaps it was an accident scene ahead. So I sipped my coffee and had a sandwich as I crept ahead. I soon found out it was not a collision that slowed my progress but it was a line of cars waiting their turn to enter the

USA

I eventually made my way to the turn and soon headed north again to Abbotsford. I found Karen waiting for me at Tim’s and we had a delightful visit. We soon said goodbye but little did I know our visit would be a bit longer as Karen was soon driving me to an auto parts store to purchase a new tensioner pulley as the one in the van shattered. Here I was in Abbotsford with minimal tools (but had the ones I needed) and bent over the front of the van replacing a broken pulley. It took about 2-3 hours but I was soon on my way. Covered in greasy dirt, but I was on my way again.

A Review - Part 3B

2009-12-25T15:23:00.000-06:00

I waited till the hour of 1200 noon for this photograph. Taken overlooking the Nanaimo Harbour...

A Review - Part 3A

2009-12-25T15:21:00.000-06:00

Totally random image of yours truly as captured by

Krysta Knott when she comandeered my camera...

A Review - Part 3

2009-12-25T15:14:00.000-06:00

Jon Sparks puts it as “God’s Country” but I do beg to differ… the Prairies is truly “God’s Country” as you can see it without obstruction and yet it still has hidden treasures everywhere… Needless to say but with the ocean, trees and amazing landscapes I was very happy to be here. My brother Jim and his wife Nancy were gracious hosts and I even shared my bed with Mac ‘n Tosh their two cats (or the boyz as has been noted). While this was a solo trip I felt the need to do I talked to Brigitte every night and we sent text messages throughout the day. I missed her presence but could feel her love.

I could not come to this place of beauty without plans to work with Rhea and Krysta. These are two excited young women who were conjoined at birth and I had the pleasure to meet last year when I was on the coast. While the plans were loosly put together (too many unknowns) I knew that the end result would be wonderful. Even the adventure of working on a patch of beach to later find the tide had slowly come in. This forced is to walk through waist deep Pacific Ocean to get back to dry land. The water was actually warm and we only had to detour around one jelly fish. I also met up with several others (Kristina, Sarah, Meaghan, and Taryn) and found my visit with each to be wonderful and the results of the work to be awesome.

A Review - Part 2

2009-12-25T15:00:00.000-06:00

It is Monday (Aug 17) and I am setting out on a solo journey to Victoria. It is a long trip and likely the last one I will be able to drive through the mountains. I am certain I will make the trip again but not likely as a driver and certainly not being able to see what I want to see as I do so. Stops along the way included Calgary for fuel and a bit of lunch, some railroad features along the highway through Yoho National Park, Revelstoke and my first day ending in Kelowna where I will have supper with Brigitte’s step-dad and rest for the night. It was inevitable that stops along the way for photos and such would put me back a few hours but I arrived in Kelowna to a wonderful meal prepared by “Dad” and a nice sleep.

I carried on the next morning and arrive at the ferry in Vancouver at about noon. Took my place in line and was soon boarding the vessel. I was happy that the old van made it this far without a problem and was amazed at how the fuel economy was. Trip average so far for the old girl was 34mpg with the best value through the Roger's Pass.

A Review - Part 1

2009-12-25T14:49:00.000-06:00

Where does one begin when you have been away from something for so long?

Along with brief reviews there is a selection of images from the past 4 months that will reflect some of the images I will maintain in my memory long after my sight dwindles...

It was Saturday and preparations were being made for the “Canada Remembers Airshow”. We had an opportunity to once again work with “Miss Mitchell” a B-25 bomber from World War 2. This machine was designed to destroy but its beauty as she slices through the air will bring memories to some and to others a lesson on world history. With two models from Alberta (Katlyn and Nikki) and two from Saskatoon (Mishelle and Kymberli) we had prepared to work in a vintage style with Miss Mitchell and something more open and daring with the presentation CF-18 Hornet.

The weather did not cooperate one bit for this final airshow. Rain had made the airfield soft and muddy and it would not be practical to host thousands of people on the field so Saturday’s performance was cancelled with hopes Sunday would be better. We still had the opportunity to work with several vintage aircraft and along with a Korean War era jet fighter Miss Mitchell stole the show for the crew here. Despite the rain and wind Kymberli braved the elements in her bikini to do a full series with a CF-18 on the tarmac.

It was a huge disappointment for everyone with the weather but through the organizer’s hard work a mini indoor show was held on Sunday with a fly-pass in an attempt to salvage what was left of a long standing and world class production. To those who “Walked for us all” I bid you a heart felt thank you and to those who paid the supreme sacrifice I am certain your souls are in paradise with the creator at your side. Many thanks to Vern G. for all his support and assistance in our production efforts, lets hope there is enough support to bring the show back.

Sand in everything...

2009-08-14T23:35:00.000-06:00

Today was spent working on some of the outdoor concepts that some of the models wanted for their portfolios. Joined by Lacey (student photographer), Katlyn, Nikki an Ashley I headed to paradise beach. The day looked good but the wind picked up and sand ended up in a lot of places. We did have a pretty good day out on the sand and was able to cover quite a bit. Lacey was also shooting as was Kat so I am interested in seeing the results from each of them.

We covered a lot on the sand and it was soon time to pack up and head out. I needed to go the airport and get the passes I needed for the airshow for everyone and check out where the preparation room was that we would be using. I also ventured out onto the airfield to see they way things were laid out. The wind was high and clouds were moving in. I hope it is just a small thing rolling through and it would be gone quickly.

Tomorrow would be a full day…

One more than the other...

2009-08-13T22:23:00.000-06:00

With preparation for the upcoming airshow on the weekend I was busy and somewhat scatter brained. Not that this is unusual in itself but I think I was more out there than usual. Two models came in from Alberta to work with us on some of the shooting that would be taking place over the next few days. Katlyn has been here before but this time she brought with her Nikki who comes from the Calgary area.

Today was spent in the studio working on some of the project work and to just generally get in some studio time. Katlyn has been working on her skills as a photographer and I like the progress she has been making since I first ran into her. Anyway the day went along nicely and I am sure that Kat was able to grab a few more pointers.

Nikki was an interesting person to work with. Well toned and tanned (the tan can be a problem in some work) and I am wondering which direction one can go with her. Enthusiasm is certainly a strong point with her as is some of her ability.

But, tomorrow is another day…

80 years and the 19th hole...

2009-08-09T23:49:00.000-06:00

I have spoken often about my Mom and how I am indebted to her for all the love and support she has given me these past 51+ years. Today my mother turned 80 years old but I think she only managed two rounds of golf this past week…

Boy, to be out there golfing and enjoying life is the way to spend your time. Only executives, rich people and my Mom can do that. Travel and knitting… She is a wonderful woman so full of life and love.

Happy Birthday Mom… thank you so much for being you and for putting up with me for all these years. The worry, anguish and anger I have created have all boiled down to a hug, a kiss and an “I Love You son…”

Rain killed it...

2009-08-08T22:40:00.000-06:00

Brigitte and I went to the fringe tonight… I know it had rained the night before but the acts were the same, vendors were the same but I won’t fault the festival all together as we did not go to any of the side shows… all in all I was not impressed. Will go again next year but will maybe get someone to drop us off as parking is severely limited in the area. I will take the rain as the reason the show as not up to the usual standards as years past…

I will give it another go next year…

Another one to another...

2009-08-05T22:34:00.000-06:00

Kendra showed up at a wedding… no she did not crash it but was a friend of the bride who had both Stylist and MUA skills. She was in charge of making the bride look amazing on her special day and she did just that. We talked as she worked and as I photographed about the industry and the work I do in the studio. I mentioned she should call me or find a time that would work for us to have coffee and talk about it all.

Well, the day came and here she is in the studio tonight. I will be making use of her work as a stylist and MUA but also as a model. Something she has thought about for some time as a lot of young women have. Kendra brings with her a dream and desire to succeed. I never promise anyone success but will work with them and with others to give them some of the tools they need to find their own style and path.

We will see more of Kendra as time moves on… as a model, a stylist and a make-up artist… Welcome aboard Kendra.

From one to the other...

2009-08-04T23:19:00.000-06:00

I first met Jessica when she worked on the makeup crew for a shoot I was doing with a model from Red Deer. She took her time but the result was super. She did two other up-do’s to the makeup through the course of the day and with minimal work was able to change the models look significantly. While I look forward to her work again as an MUA she also was able to pull it off in the studio as a model.

Her look is natural and while she does have a unique problem with her back the ability and effort she exuded in the studio was wonderful. I could see where some poses would be a problem but with careful work and seeing which way worked the best I managed to find the angles that would work and used the problem to the advantage of the model and myself. Jessica will be back again as an MUA but also as a model.

Along with Jessica in this sitting was Ashley. This is a girl who wanted to try out the whole studio experience. While she lacks the knowledge and practice others have had by the end of her sitting she began to adapt very easily to the work. I use hand signals a lot as sometimes it is easier. The signals are always given with the left hand and are easily seen and interpreted by the model without having to look away from the lens. My left hand is always on the lens for focus and zoom and my index finger is very adept at getting the message across.

Any person I work with can tell you that keeping an eye on the lens is one thing but keeping them there while watching for hand signals is not that hard. If I am in a high noise area like traffic or if the music is loud in the studio the hand signals are definite and informative. Both Jessica and Ashley learned this quickly. I look forward to working with them again in the fall.

My weekend is over, back to the task at hand along with other things. Major birthday coming up in the family and my youngest and her family are moving into, or should I say are unpacking from moving into their new apartment. I am happy for them both and little Addison will be happier I think.

Don't forget to breathe...

2009-08-03T23:02:00.000-06:00

While getting away with family and such like on the Annual Family Camping Get-Away, it is always nice to get home. There is always something very comforting and familiar with one’s home and I always love to return there. Now you must understand I love the getting away part too. Some of the planning was left a little late for this trip but everything went very well and everyone (except for Miss Jam Tart) was there. I enjoyed the company and I enjoyed the kids… I may also have enjoyed watching my kids dealing with their kids much like I had to so many years ago.

Some people call this parental revenge but I like to refer to it as a combined effort to raise and nurture the family and render what assistance when one can. I also like to load the grandkids up on treats and watch them go… OK, I will lean to the revenge side. But it is very interesting to see how each of my children deals with the things that are placed in front of them. Watching each with their children is sometimes entertaining as there is not a lot I can do.

The trip went very well and even on the last night when it began to rain, it was still enjoyable. Brigitte and I went back to our trailer and played Cribbage. She won then I won and it was then the rubber round. The race was close but Brigitte was (as she so eloquently put it and sang it as well) “I am the champion…!!” I looked at her with a dumbfounded look and she simply broke into hysterics. These were in itself funny as the tears rolled down her face, her attempts at breathing between the bouts of laughter were nearly in vain.

Eventually she was able to relax and not laugh quite as much but it is always such a joy when her face lights up as she laughs then eventually will turn red and then blue if she is not able to recover as quickly.

The weekend was fabulous and I look forward to the next one…

As a note... I did not know this before but a favourite entertainer and what you might call philosopher was born in Moose Jaw. Some of you will remember his radio show which was soon adapted to more modern TV with Bill Cosby when "Kids say the Darndest Things". Rest in peace Mr. Linkletter.

And they are off...

2009-07-31T16:39:00.000-06:00

We are off…

It is the 3^rd annual family camping get-away and this year we are going to Buffalo Pound Provincial Park. Brigitte and I have plans to visit Moose Jaw to see the tunnels and whatever else we can see. Of course we are also going to stop and have some of the fabulous chicken at Déjà vu which is on the street behind the casino… some fine food there without a doubt…

Back in time...

2009-07-29T22:57:00.000-06:00

It was a year ago when I met with Mishelle and Ryan to talk about their wedding. A sharp affair and of course she liked the package I had to offer. Mind you I have worked with and mentored Mishelle as a model and as a photographer. I have always felt she was born about 50 years too late. She would have slid into the late 40’s much better but still she is a delight to work with.

Tonight she is in having her bridal portrait done. She had chosen a conservative approach and wanted to work on a style and theme of the late 40’s and early 50’s. She had carefully selected her wardrobe for the shoot and upon arrival at the studio did her own makeup. We talked about some of the work that had been done over the past few months and the work that was being put together for the airshow.

The sitting went well and was quite entertaining with the conversation about the wedding and all that goes with it. She is keenly interested in improving her practical skills as a photographer and has some interesting ideas as well. I am sure that her work will be recognized in time and there will be more collaboration on other projects and work.

From the past and nifty little gadgets...

2009-07-28T22:31:00.000-06:00

I had met her some years before and recently ran across her path (OK I don’t run so I kind of sauntered) not that long ago. I knew she was into fitness and dance but more so she still seemed like the happy person I met before. Besides all of that stuff I wanted to be able to photograph her in the studio.

I arranged to meet for coffee and we talked about what has gone on in her life a bit, what was new and that sort of thing. We also talked about the studio work and projects and it all seemed to interest her quite a bit. So with that in mind a time was set and she came into the studio for her first fashion/glamour style of sitting.

The shoot went well and I am looking forward to the next series I do with her. I believe it will be when Katlyn is back and we are working with another model from Alberta. That is not for a few weeks yet and things have to be confirmed but it looks like it will be a go. As long as the weather holds but that too remains to be seen.

I have been getting things ready for the family camping trip as well. Got the trailer hitch installed on the van with a big bouquet of thanks to my friend David. He told me about a wiring harness I could get which would make the electrical parts work. It is a nifty little thing too, simply plugs in to each of the tail lights and along with the adapter it was up and running in no time. This is one guy who can give advice on mechanical issues and chances are very good they are right and will work. Give him some duct tape and a beer can I am sure he can make anything work.

Update

2009-07-26T21:55:00.000-06:00

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The recent entries clear up a severe backlog

of notes from the past two months.

Every entry as of today since May 11, 2009 are new.

It will hold sir!!

2009-07-20T21:54:00.000-06:00

Well the trailer hitch is finally mounted on the van. And it took a smart ass from the British S.A.S. to point out that this kind of task could only be done by or screwed up by a Saskatchewan farmer (our friend David) and a “Colonel” from the army (yours truly).

It is on the van, doesn’t rattle and should hold quite well. If not oh well.

Had a run in with a road rage driver the other day… pulled in front of me… slammed on his brakes and I hit him. I filed the proper reports and SGI calls to tell me that he was found at fault.

Road rage does not pay…

Two in one...

2009-07-19T22:39:00.000-06:00

Over the past few days I have worked with two models. One is new to the studio and made a trip up from Regina to interview about her styling skills as well as her modeling.

Lydia

was in to work on “Shadows and Light” and also had some nifty outfit ideas she wanted to pass by me. It is always a cool shoot with

Lydia

as it is with many others and she like Kymberli, Jacey and Tasha are key models in this project.Athena is a stylist and a model. She came in from Regina today to talk about the work the studio is doing. I think she will be back for the work we are doing at the airshow as well as other work in the studio. She is quiet yet has an ability that works. A natural look and is quite relaxed in the studio setting. Thank you Athena for making the journey and look forward to working with you again.

Lobster in the Prairies...

2009-07-11T21:29:00.000-06:00

Beth is demonstrating what you should not do prior to a shoot with horses where boots and blue jeans are the call of the day…

She knows what happened and why the shoot had to be called off. Your apology is accepted, these things happen. Next time I will reach out and smack ya one.

Well I won’t really but the damage that was done and the problems it can create. Basically told her to keep her burn moisturized and drink lots of water. We will try again later if we can. Gave her a hug and sent her on her way. Please note however how nicely her legs, shoes and truck all match now...

Brigitte and I are here in the Battlefords so I may as well visit…

And baby makes three...

2009-07-06T21:24:00.000-06:00

I made her promise me this one thing… After you move away if you and your man ever decide to have children and you get the news that you are expecting let me know and the studio is yours.

Ashley presented some wonderful opportunities for work in the studio. She was likely the first one to go through a set of “Shadows and Light” sittings and numerous other fashion ideas. She was now expecting a baby and wanted to come into the studio to have trimester photos done of herself and some with her man. I was happy to make allowances and arrange a time that would work for us all.

She was radiant and I know she is looking forward to the birth of her daughter. Both Mom and Dad seem happy and we made good use of the time in the studio as well as on location. Ashley loves the outdoors and had an idea of doing some of the photos in the sand along the beach. We did that for her and for the little girl that grows in her belly.

Congratulations and all the best to the three of you…

Home sweet home...

2009-07-04T23:45:00.000-06:00

I felt the need to get home and really didn’t like the idea of staying a hotel in Brandon or even further west closer to Regina. I was refreshed and it kind of annoyed Brigitte but I drove straight through just to be home.

Our trip was good and could have been longer. I will look at possibly putting up some images but will when I feel like going through them all and then perhaps doing them as some sort of special blog entry with a bit of a story with each. Needless to say we did find a few people to take photos of us in various places and also did the hold the camera and shoot our own photo. I forgot a tripod and this was kind of fun but it is not easy holding up a studio camera and pressing the shutter with one hand… But I did it…

We are off

2009-06-28T04:30:00.000-06:00

We are off… on our honeymoon and on a holiday. We are going to head east at least to the Lake of the Woods and perhaps further. All of our stuff was packed and ready to go, just a matter of getting in the car and leaving.

We are traveling for the first time without cell phones, no laptop computers and no maps…

Lets see where the road will take us.

The bride smiled... the groom is a comic...

2009-06-27T22:56:00.000-06:00

I met her a few years ago when she moved in across the hall from my basement suite. We didn’t talk a whole lot in the beginning but soon would run into each other randomly through out the week. Once she came over and asked if I could hear the noise from upstairs. The people upstairs had a party going on and the main room of their part of the building was right above Gillian’s bedroom. I was in the back so short of the upstairs toilet flushing now and then heard nothing. Be that as it may we became friends.

She introduced me to her boyfriend Kelsey and he was a good looking fellow. Bit if a ham too... He had asked me about modeling so we set things up and did a test shoot which led into several other sittings. He was fun to work with and just funny too. As time went by Gillian moved to Regina to be with him and life went on. It really wasn’t too much longer but I caught wind of an upcoming wedding. Kelsey had popped the question.

They asked me to photograph their wedding and I was only too happy to do so. The date soon came and it was a very nice outdoor affair. Guests arrived and filled the many seats. The ceremony was lovely as was the party afterward. To the new couple (held off on our honeymoon so I could shoot this wedding) I wish you all the best and be happy…

Last one...

2009-06-25T19:40:00.000-06:00

This is the last grad of the year. Shyla is joined by her family as we capture her beauty and pride shortly before heading off to the ceremonies. What can I say about this girl? I have worked with her on several occasions and while she is a bit gullible she is one who can take a joke and laugh about it as well.

Congratulations young lady… get your life going and move on to the future…

The time is now...

2009-06-20T09:33:00.000-06:00

Today I will be married… Brigitte Johnson will cease to exist and will become my bride. I could not be any happier except perhaps when it is all done and everything is put away I might be more so but you know.

The last bits of décor are going up in the yard, things are taking shape. It won’t be long before guests arrive and we will have a yard full of people. My kids are part of today’s event and I likely could not have done this with out their support but mostly the love and caring of my mother has brought me through a rough time some years ago. The humour of my kids, the birth of Addison have all been part of my becoming a human again.

Then there is Brigitte… a woman who walked into my life from an internet dating site. Unsure about each other but soon growing together as two people should. Her support of my work has been second to none, her laughter, her joy when she is around children and her tears when she is hugged or one of the kids does something just for her. My love, who will soon be part of a large family will be happy despite our joint stubbornness.

She is a woman who is loved by me and my children, adored by my grandkids and she glows when everyone is around her. At Christmas we had a packed house for supper… all of my kids and grandkids, My mom and siblings and their families as well. She was not stressed, and seemed to love each moment as it unfolded. My God, where did this woman come from? Heaven sent? Could be… but I will not make assumptions but send a thank you card to Bill Gates as I am sure if he was not around home computers may not have brought us together.

Time to say I do…

Zero hour approaches... he kneels to pray.

2009-06-19T19:22:00.000-06:00

Zero hour approaches… Bustling around the city picking up the last minute items my brother and I head to a wedding rental shop to pick up the archway that Brigitte and I rented for our day tomorrow. Things were being set up in Mom’s yard as we prepared for the guests to arrive in slightly more than 24 hours.

Yes the man that said never again is doing exactly the thing he said he would never do… and that is get married. But I am so looking forward to it. Brigitte and I have been together under the same roof for well over a year and have been as a couple for much longer. It was time. I proposed to her back on Christmas and the event that takes place tomorrow was nearly planned before the middle of January.

We knew what we wanted and while Brigitte did most of the planning and preparation I kind of stayed out of the way either out of good sense or better judgment. Tomorrow will soon be here…

Against the odds...

2009-06-17T19:03:00.000-06:00

She has worked hard to get where she is. Studies did not come easy and in the second go around her efforts have been rewarded. With her man at her side Rochelle has conquered some of the odds that were against her and has succeeded in graduating with her Grade 12. I am certain that Ben is very proud of her and seeing them together is wonderful.

I took the opportunity to work with Rochelle to capture the event and with Ben the conversation was delightful. Even though I had to tie his tie and shake out a slightly rumpled suit jacket he looked quite dapper next to his girl. This couple is struggling but seems to have a game plan more or less set. I am sure they will be happy and of course Rochelle is expected back in the studio as soon as time permits.

Congratulations Rochelle you have a right to be proud… you earned it girl…

Rough around the edges...

2009-06-14T22:32:00.000-06:00

Diverse, a rough and tough girl yet demure and quiet. Amber can be very excitable but tries to explain the thoughts in her head. One has to read between the lines sometimes but generally it comes forward fairly easily.

She was in the city today with her friend Christine and was part of a further shoot for one of the studio projects but at the same time was going to be adding to the swimsuit portion of her portfolio. Her skin was dark due to exposure to the sun and that troubles me a bit as this kind of tanning will put her in danger. I told her this as I am quite frank with those I work with and when it comes to preventable things like skin cancer I can be quite vocal.

In any case the day went very well and along with Lacey (student) and another interested model who I will talk about when I meet with her officially, a good day was had in the studio as well as under the sun and in the water. Mind you I think they left with some sand in an uncomfortable place but the opportunity to wash it all off was there. I am still digging sand out of my camera bag and it never left the van…

I first worked with Amber several years ago and it is a pleasure to have her back in front of the camera. She is toned, ambitious yet rough around the edges. Her use of colourful metaphors in her speech is interesting as well, but each to her own…